#and i only kinda just realized that cause as ive immersived myself in my writing & art i have locked myself in my room for several weeks

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I Sold My Soul to be a Good Artist When I was 13 and This is What I Have to Show For It

#lune art #vent art #gonna vent here sorry i dont have a therapist #this year i wanted to start making as much art as i possibly could and. it could be just the season but i am falling into a deep depression #and i only kinda just realized that cause as ive immersived myself in my writing & art i have locked myself in my room for several weeks #its kind of tradition at this point honestly #but consciously or unconsciously i make art to impress others since for me its a form of communication and how i express myself #and when i write/draw and share it with people its incredibly intimidating because it has to be flawless and represent my talent #but that takes quite a bit out of me because i do have to dedicate my every waking thought to it #and thus i shut myself inside my room to spend all of my energy on my passion projects #but on the brighter end embracing surrealism has actively helped me work through a lot of shit #connecting to my childhood and freeing my art from being perfect as i pay attention to the concept of something rather than a clear image. #anyway ive started a sketchbook where i draw without caring what anything looks like #it has helped but yeah i need to talk to a therapist and not just psychoanalyze myself lol #sketchbook