#and i cannot believe that in fuckin!!!! uni!!!! ppl are selecting their faves and forming elite cliques

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#sorry julia i'm copying your text post concept jskdfjkds i didn't know what else to put in the post and you have such a good idea for it #i hope you won't mind!! ily ♥ #i just wanted to share how i'm doing so there's no specific theme for this tag monologue fjskdjfksd #anyway i went to a party last night (my first uni party woop woop despite me being a uni student for 1.5 years skdfjskd) #(i usually just go to hangouts and official events but not the parties at clubs) #it was like ehhh bc i had such a fun time with my friend but the other psych students have like???? formed a clique or sth #bc this one girl invited some selected ppl to her place to pregame and not an open invitation in the gc like ppl have previously done #she sent private messages to the ones she wanted to invite??? my friend was amongs them bc she's popular™ sakdfjskfd #so she told me about this and i just feel like wow hit me with the fuckin.... middle school bullying triggers #idk the girl who did that gives me that popular girl vibe and i've never been a popular kid jskdfjsd i got close friends in high school #and we had a tight squad but we were like the loser squad you know jskdfjskdf not hanging out with the main popular kids #although i went to a theatre class so our whole class was the loser squad in a typical high school hierarchy sjdfskd #which meant most of them were rly nice ppl #and i cannot believe that in fuckin!!!! uni!!!! ppl are selecting their faves and forming elite cliques #anyway i guess i gotta find my loser squad instead of trying to integrate into the popular kids bc that's not my scene #they were just dancing in the club and i don't dance unless i feel safe around you #also i was staying at my grandma's place bc she lives close to the club and she's travelling rn #and omg cooking with someone else's supplies is soo scary sjfkdsjdkfds like you don't know how anything works what they have etc #also she has a similar small frying pan that i do so i took it home to clean???? bc she doesn't have any oil?????? and it needs to be oiled #isn't olive oil like??? a cooking essential jskdfjksd or vegetable oil of your choice #i had sooo much stuff with me that a frying pan didn't rly feel like a lot to add sdfnmsdnmfnms #me: goes away for one night #me: takes more stuff than i would take for a week abroad #my thingies