#and how tf did everyone learn about this anyway. family gossip i hate u

[kimmkitsuragi]

ughhhh i literally cannot take how my classes start tmrw and i will have to work on a stupid project for another whole semester............ *applies for masters programs while saying this*

#friends.... i might be making nonsense decisions rn #i dont even know if any of the programs ive been considering will accept me and even if they do idek how i will afford it all etc etc #and even if i can afford it then idek how tf i will live all alone in a new city and a new country etc etc #and even if it all ends up fine then i still dont know if i Want to do this #well!! we will see i suppose #in my defense: #im avoiding anything to do with design like plauge sheghsfghd #technical courses ily. i shouldve been an engineer i think #i also love social science classes too. anything but arch #but also like im aware this may be mistake as well because my current situation leads me to believe this #and maybe this is not so bad for me but i just dont know what i like or dislike so i am making a mistake again. you know #misjudgment of the self #because i used to like design but now i canNOT stand it like get me out of hereeeeeee #anyway. lets see where we go from here because i genuinely do not know #and oh btw literally everyone in my family is like get the fuck out of here girl go go go go and like yeah i love the encouragement #but haha guys its kinda stressing me out. dont expect much from me pls #and how tf did everyone learn about this anyway. family gossip i hate u #i Do want to leave. i also do Not want to leave. hope it helps #🗒