#and here I was thinking maybe if Fruba was good

[sorrowmarked-a]

𝑬𝑿𝑷𝑬𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑺𝑬𝑳𝑭 . || accepting 

all questions asked by @tigerstriped

what  character  have  you  never  written ,  but  have  wanted  to ?

Setsuna from Sailor Moon. I’m not sure why I haven’t just added her, but you know. There are also like characters from shoujo that I think I would love to add but ultimately don’t because I’m not sure that they’ll find a home here. (Tohru from Fruba. Yamato from Ore Monogatari!) OH! And I gave a thought to writing Sango from Inuyasha but ultimately decided not to for the time being. 

OH and I did add Miaka here but no one but me was writing Fushigi Yugi so I ultimately never got to write her. 

do  you  prefer  extensive  plotting ,  or  writing  things  on  a  whim ?

A bit of both. I think I enjoy starting stuff on a whim but then plotting always helps things last longer than a few replies. It’s nice to have a bit of an idea where things are going. Plus! It’s a good bonding activity for partners, like you make friends faster when you plot, I’m telling you. 

what  is  your  favorite  dynamic  trope  to  write ?

I can’t pick just one. I love found family (including the subgenre Tick and I invented which is local ghoul has a daughter now.)  I love sworn protector x princess. I love lady and the tramp. I love childhood friends to lovers. I love the “i was born for her, and she was born for me” trope (Inuyasha and Fushigi Yugi both have it. Isekai’s greatest strength clearly). Anything where the guy is a simp. Chaos gremlins. And of course the Persephone and Hades trope. 

how  has  your  writing  style  evolved  since  you  started  writing  on  tumblr ?

I mean I’ve almost been writing on this particular site for a decade so I think it’s hard to say. I do think I’m getting better at using evocative imagery. I attempt from time to time to evoke place and feeling, idk how successful I am. Sometimes I do pretty damn good. Other times I’m maybe a bit too lazy. 

#welcome to my weeb blog for weebs || ooc

[omentrash]

Maybe bc I read a lot of japanese Manga I have a different take on it but if you are gay you are mostly likely reading Bara bc that's the target they aim at. Lesbians read BL/GL. They're are all divided genres and there are 12 zodiac 2 who are bi, looking at my old class where 1 and 1 other girl were bi it's actually quite realistic. Do they end up with girls? Yeah but that's why it's called bi, I've a hard time seeing the problem. And what some fans expect from Takaya.

The representation is really poor though. I'm not expecting her to go back in time to rewrite it obviously. It's not like it ruins the story for me it's just something I wish was more present. I grew up with Fruits Basket and I can still enjoy it while also discussing things that bother me. I don't really understand why so many people get upset with those of us who have something to critical to say. You don't have to agree with me. I was commenting on the comic bc I agreed with the point being made about problematic minor/adult relationships in Fruba and wanted to add to it.

Sailor Moon and Cardcaptor Sakura came out during that time too and both feature canon lgbt representation so it being an older manga doesn't really make a valid excuse for it. Western adaptions of those animes erased the representation bc America was largely homophobic back then. And I know what bi means, I'm literally pansexual but it's not good bi representation when Haru mentions Yuki being his first love and thats that. People treat Takaya like she can do no wrong in this fandom and it's annoying. She's a human being, not some untouchable individual who can do no wrong.

Most of my favorite things are riddled with their own problems and I see them and talk about them. You can be critical and enjoy something. They aren't mutually exclusive.

And PLEASE do not tell me the age of consent is 13 in Japan bc all that tells me is you read the definition Google gives you. If you actually research it most prefectures have the age at 18 and even older. It is extremely taboo for an adult to pursue a minor in Japan. Just bc many mangas have adult/student relationships doesn't mean it's okay. It's a problem. It reminds me of the people on here that are apart of the teacher crush community where they express their feelings for their adult teachers. That is a fairly normal thing for teens to do but under no circumstances should we be normalizing or arguing it as morally justified in fiction. I think they even address Katsuya being into underage girls and try to pass it off as no big deal. The same goes for Uo and Kureno. She literally says it's probably weird for them to see eachother with the age gap. These lines show me that Takaya was aware these things are taboo and decided to write them that way anyways.

Nobody in 2020 should be acting like Fruits Basket aged well in every part. The story itself and the characters are well written but when you get into specific relationships a lot of them are deeply flawed, even the legal age ones.

[mobolanz]

end of year asks: 1, 4, 9, 18 and 22 :)

HOW COME I ONLY SEE THIS NOW TUMBLR BECAME DUMB I’M SO SORRY 

1.what did you learn about yourself this year?

Well, i learned that maybe the reason my last 3 years were so fuked up is because my own self appreciation was too low..(resulted by at least 10 years of abuse and mockery, being considered as “less important”  )  for amost 3 years until last summer i was friends with someone i whom i thought that i geniunly mattered to , and took m a very long time to understand that the fact is feel sometimes unequal is NOT  a coincidence , it was toxic friendship that i allowed to continue over the years, i let her treat me like that, afraid of losing what i called again and again “ one of my closest people ever. thinking that since we’re friends it’s “normal”(BLAME EVERY SINGLE TEACHER OF MINE FOR MAKING ME THINK THAT WAY)  and “ ohh maybe you feel that way because you’re selfish inside??it’s only toxic from your point of view???” 

4. what was the biggest change you experienced this year?

the last 3 years were indeed my worst ones for the above reasons,there were multiple times where i just wanted to end that. however , interacting and feeling influenced positivly last year made me realize that ... i should stop? IT’S MY LIFE WHY DO I STILL LET THOSE SHITASSES PLAY WITH IT AND RUIN IT, (AND GIVE ME MOTIVATION TO HURT MYSELF TOO) ??because, after all, there are some people who understood my sistuation and thought i was right.  so i decided to make a drastic change- i put all that discourse i had with my parents on the side ( and we are in MUCH BETTER terms right now) , i quitted from one specificly toxic fandom which shall not be named ( i also left another one recently hehe) ,and  i pretty much stopped talking to that shitass. i started realizing that i’m not that bad person many people gave me that impression of myself. (especially in school since i stayed quiet instead of being some non stop screaming bech), i mean of course i still  remember some of these from time to time and it does hurt, but i hope it will end soon enough ,recovery and changing takes time after all. 

this qoute for example

I... There was a time when I stopped talking. Just like you. My reasons were a little bit different, but I think the feelings of being ashamed of myself and hating myself are the same. Here, it says to "like yourself." What does that mean? Good things- how are you supposed to find them? I only know things that I hate about myself. Because that's all I know, I hate myself. But even if you force yourself to find good things, it feels so empty. It doesn't work that way. People like your teacher just don't get it. I think when you hear someone say they like you, for the first time, then you can begin to like yourself. I think when someone accepts you, for the first time, you feel like you can forgive yourself a little. You can begin to face your fears with courage.”(yuki)  (;---------;) 

9. best television series?

ok i didn’t really watch that much from new stuff in 2018  so i guess dmcb? ( although if i can inculde shows that i discovered this year (and came out before)  so it’d be g00 and fruba, both had an influence on my decision too :”). )

also SEASON3 AND FUL STORY REMAKE IN 2019  YASSSSSS 2019 IS VAILD .

18. what surprised you the most this year?

TBH, I DON’T REMEMBER  

22.has your fashion style changed this year?

well, i started wearing jewleries more often... does that count?

[whatisalifeihaveablog]

yuki, kakeru, and kimi & number 2!

2. fist fight, get drunk with, share a flat with

Oh lord my dysfunctional fruba ship lmao on a side note it is hilarious to me how yukeru is such a good ship for two people healing and growing together and shit but as soon as you throw Kimi in the mix it becomes chaos. Like if you imagine them as a healthy functional trio that's great but I cannot do that 🤣

Fist fight: On a related note to the last paragraph, Kimi. I actually do love her but I feel like it would do her some good to get her ass kicked just once. Does anyone else feel that way about her or is it just me? Like you love her but also want to punch her in the face.

Get drunk with: This one has to be my son and boy I projected WAY too hard onto in middle school, Yuki! This is partly bc I absolutely would not be able to live with his mess. I'm not good enough at cleaning my own shit for that and us together would end up with the sea of decay making a return lmao I like the idea of high Yuki better than drunk Yuki but I would absolutely chill and drink with him. Like one of those nights when it's just you and your bro sitting around drinking whatever. Maybe you're watching something or playing video games or having a stupid deep drunk convo

Share a flat with: It is helpful I genuinely think Kakeru is a the best choice here. In that regard he seems to relatively has his shit together. There's nothing I can think of that would make him seem like a bad roommate. Or at least nothing that would bother me too much.

#answered #fruits basket

[non-census]

Its been a good day.

Well, last night I went to sleep kinda depressed and I woke up kind of anxious - but I've had a good day so far.

I finished a manga I loved, washed my hair and deep cleaned my whole room as well as spiritually cleansed the place and upped my wards. Plus the cleaning session doubled as a hangout session with Lord Lucifer so that was fun :D 

Today somewhat feels like lying down in that sunlit patch of grass. The only sound is that of the wind rustling through the leaves. And maybe cicadas. It feels like getting some respite from the darkness and noise in my head. 

The plan is to get some work done, maybe do some art and play Genshin as a treat ^^ So far- it is shaping to be a perfectly productive Saturn day <3

The manga I read and loved is called “On or Off.” It is a BL (obviously.) The main characters, the side characters, the story line, art style, coloring - everything was just so perfect and cute- I was squealing over all 7- chapters lol.  I someday want a romance like that hehe. 

The soundtrack while cleaning was “Too bad so sad” by Gun Boi Kaz - this song gives me so much serotonin and fits so well amongst my hyper-pop filled playlist (/▽＼)

I don’t know why I'm sharing this here but again, i want this space to be a place where I can just talk. 

I tried twitter but the character limit is X﹏X 

I’m still kinda navigating tumblr. I wrote this really long post two days ago that was like a really nice analysis of fruits basket s3, but it just got deleted and well sent me smack dab into an episode but oh well. As Yuki says “I wish I could've lived my life without making any wrong turns. But that's impossible. A path like that doesn't exist. We fail. We trip. We get lost. We make mistakes. And little by little, one step at a time, we push forward. It's all we can do. On our own two feet.” - This is actually one of my favorite sayings of all time - its so realistically hopeful. This one and that other one that Shigure-san says referring to life as laundry :’)

< “Shigure: Perhaps I can offer some advice? ...You know, Tohru-kun, when you get anxiety about the future it's better not to think about it. And let's not wipe our faces with dishtowels... For example let's say, Tohru-kun, that you are surrounded with a mountain of laundry piled so high around your feet that you can't move. Are you with me? Now, let's assume you don't have a washing machine, so you have to wash everything individually by hand. You would be at a loss for what to do, right? You'd worry about if you could ever wash everything, if you could get it all clean, if you'd ever have time for anything but laundry ever again! The more you'd think about it, the more anxious you'd get. But the time keeps passing, and the laundry doesn't wash itself. So what do you do, Tohru-kun? It might be a good idea to start washing the laundry right at your feet. Of course it's important to think about what lies ahead, too, but if you only look at what's down the road you'll get tangled in the laundry at your feet and you'll fall, won't you? You see, it's also important to think about what you can do now, what you can do today. And if you keep washing things one at a time, you'll be done before you know it. Because fortune is looking out for you. Sometimes the anxiety will start to well up, but when it does, take a little break. Read a book, watch TV, or eat soumen with everyone. Oh my, I'm shocked! Wow! What a wonderful analogy! I really must treat myself to some soumen as a reward... Oh! I'd like some tea, too!>

Anyway, maybe I will re-write a post of fruba someday soon - or maybe not. I want to write some fun critical analysis pieces about anime i love because writing essays is kind of like my hobby (^人^) But lets see. No pressure, Storm. No pressure.

#fruba #maybe this is a diary entry? #just-talking