#and for. ~3 hours? mild anxiety abt that bc I get rlly weird abt losing things

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actually tiny thing this time that I would just like to complain about so I can go to bed :/

#I’ve lost a t shirt :/ #I’m at home rn and going back to uni tomorrow morning and bc I knew it’d be hard to keep track of clothes (I left some behind last time) #I made a list of everything I brought. and I have it! except for this one specific t shirt #it’s not special!! it just fits nice and I would like it back especially for summer #but it has gone missing and it’s not in any of the places I’ve looked #and for. ~3 hours? mild anxiety abt that bc I get rlly weird abt losing things #there’s a reason I made a list and why I don’t let my siblings borrow my shit long term #anyway it not being anywhere means it’s with one of my siblings clothes except they’re both stubborn fucking bastards and either #1. insane levels of teenage boy thinking he’s better than everyone 2. deciding she fucking hates me and has been treating me like dirt #at best. like just pointedly not looking at me and sneering when she does and that’s when she’s being NICE #anyway point is neither of them! obviously! are going to check even though that is literally the one place left where it could be #and fucking fine! whatever!! it’s a t shirt!! but why the fuck can you not do something so incredibly small #and it does not help that my mum (who has been doing the laundry the past few days) got rlly defensive and snappy abt it #it calmed down and she helped me look but just. ughshdsgjdhdh #I hate losing things so much I can’t deal with it but. whatever I can buy more t shirts I needed to anyway this just WAS one of the new ones #idk where to leave this I’m just >:/ #really frustrating situation and I can acknowledge that and let it sit until it passes #or smth. trying to figure out how to not be telling myself it’s fine all the time #anyway. sleep now #luke.txt