#and apparently today the coping method of choice is freeze lol

[caramiaaddio]

I know I’m a grown woman but I’d like to call into work like ‘I’m gonna be late tomorrow on account of getting no sleep because I had a panic attack cause my neighbors are having a massive fight that triggers my cptsd plus I’m worried there’s some sort of domestic violence situation going on but I can hear enough of what they’re actually saying to know for sure it’s just a hunch based on the screaming and banging noises but they could just be slamming doors who knows and like what am I supposed to call the cops cause I’d have to talk to them plus it’s not like they could fix it if they don’t literally walk into a fight so like how am I supposed to handle this cause I contacted the landlord and they didn’t do anything about it’

I just think that should be a valid reason not to come to work

#my cptsd has been real uh. present lately #the wonderful combo of the trauma I already had from growing up. plus NEW trauma you’ve never heard of before!!! #legit I’ve been full on traumatized by my students and it’s just rough #yelling hits me twice as hard now #and apparently today the coping method of choice is freeze lol #legit though my job is just…it’s hard to explain #but it’s like…obviously I’ve been autistic my whole life and I’ve always had these traits and behaviors #but when I was younger I was SO oblivious to social cues that I just straight up didn’t know when people were making fun of me #and now I do. and it’s just…I feel like a little kid getting bullied #they’re constantly making fun of me. laughing at me. taking advantage of my autism for their own gain #and like I know they’re kids but fuck man it’s hitting something I didn’t even know I had #suffice to say I’m leaving at the end of the year #but yeah it’s been legitimately traumatizing I have regular nightmares about my students