#and also ones that are extremelly personal and specific like the olivia rodrigo one or the eulogy

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

sometimes i wonder if i'm depressed or not but then i go over my old poetry and not only do i 100% confirm that's the case but that that's been the case for a while now lmao

#anyways after finishing going through my first poetry notebook (yes there's more than one lol) i can conclude i only write about 4 things #which i guess it's nice cause i could publish four poemaries with each distinct topic lmao #but like half of the poems are like 'i'm broken nobody likes me the darkness engulfs me' and like... i get that i was writing to canalize #all those feelings #and it worked #but like as someone who's actively trying to get better it's a bit rough #there's some poems here and there that i really like tho #and the poems that are not about me are pretty okay too i really enjoy them #i have a bunch about the sea and the nature and the moon and the stars #those are nice i like those #i wanna write more of them #the most iconic ones are #one eulogy i wrote about my dead friend #i was really impressed cause i don't remember writing it and i like it a lot #a series of poems i wrote while at the beach house and were heavily inspired by sea imaginery #and one depressed poem about listening to olivia rodrigo on my bedroom floor which yeah #for what i understand i am better at either vague / whimsical poems that talk about nature or fantasy characters or whatever #totally unrelated to myself and my experiences #and also ones that are extremelly personal and specific like the olivia rodrigo one or the eulogy #most of the times i just write personal poems that are also kinda vague and those are the most meh for me #so i learned from this experience :) i'll keep that in mind next time i sit to write some poetry