#and all this isn't even counting voicebank things or other vocal synth work ; ; ;

[miodiodavinci]

undergoing self-immolation from stress

#left dnd feeling kind of shitty and overall upset at myself for screwing up my character in the first session #anniversary artwork is taking forever to finish but i needed it to be done Tonight™ to make it in time for tuesday #which normally i'd say ugh whatever i'll just get it up by the 25th #but the stress of trying to get it done quickly has just made me sick of it #to the point that i want to be rid of it as quickly as possible #stressed about document renewal deadlines #stressed about car repairs i haven't even been able to think about because i'm acting as a chauffeur 9 days out of the week #stressed about needing to buy clothes for my internship soon (expensive and dysphoria abound surely) #stressed about needing to petition for my degree #stressed about poorly scheduled doctor's appointments tomorrow where they'll probably tell me my health is still garbage #and that they didn't order the right blood panel so i'll need to be stabbed another four times #ug hg ; ; ; ; #i feel like crying honestly ; ; ; ; #and all this isn't even counting voicebank things or other vocal synth work ; ; ; #how do i keep ending up here ; ; ; ; ; ;