#and al gets increasingly more headaches with each passing month. until the scowl is permanent.

[b1uedcollar]

thinking   about   gus   and   the   concept   of   home  .

#of course jock sets him up in the house #(and al says she doesn’t remember where becky’s crib is. jock doesn’t push.) #and he’s a quiet baby in a quiet house. #until he starts babbling. #and it’s as if the room grows an echo. #louder and louder. that’s when he starts fussing. crying. #and al gets increasingly more headaches with each passing month. until the scowl is permanent. #(“that’s just her face” jock will reason later when gus is convinced he’s the only one she throws The Look to.) #then he starts to crawl #and they nearly stumble through the mornings when finding him curled up in random sleeping spots. #farther from the room each time. #inching toward the door. #so close he can scratch it. #and then he starts to get his legs. #walking through the house. digging up things he shouldn’t be. #al’s head nearly blows off when he finds that crib in the attic. #(looking back he knows she was really mad about the blood all over her kitchen. #remembers the smell of bleach from each repeat cleaning. as if she could scrub the memory [and him] out of her mind for good. #and he’s caught her staring at the scar a few times since.) #but al’s headaches get better after jock takes him outside to work. #and then he’s got a hammer in his hand and fixing up the barn* loft into a new bedroom. #[this is so funny bc i wanted to talk about gus and how he sleeps in cars at any mechanic shop he works at. and then i typed this??] #[lmao part one ig????????] #𝙶𝚄𝚂 𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙶𝙴𝚁. 〈 🏀 〉 nostalgia.