#also my boyfriend was on call with me on da ps4 when I started disassociating but had to leave

[clown-time-babey]

My english teacher be like: Okay class today we are going to be reading this awful book and also fuck you if you’re easily triggered by sexual themes or abuse because it’s here and I’m not gonna warn you ahead of time :3 Fuck you and fuck your mental health have fun with that panic attack. Also write an entire essay on it and today is the last day to do it so if you don’t turn it in then fuck you. 

And Im over here like: Disassociating and recalling what I read, and then disassociating again whilst getting flashbacks, and then violently crying and hyperventilating and finally feeling nothing whilst scrolling through tumblr :)

#I sent her an email about that like bro wtf #warn your students like yeah I know it's college but it's common fucking courtesy to give people a content warning #if my linguistics teach could give us warnings then you can #also my boyfriend was on call with me on da ps4 when I started disassociating but had to leave #and the moment he did OH bOY did I start cryng #I literally didn't realize I was repressing my feelings in front of someone until he left #hfskdfjhsk when my mom started talking to me through my door I immediately stopped crying until she went away and was able to talk to her #in an even tone of voice #shut up eren #also if you're reading this please ignore it I just need to vent #part of me just wants to hang up on our insta call cause we're still calling thru there and just shut everything down and lock myself in my #room and die or smth #okay maybe not die but like just #be alone for a bit