#also just reflecting on how fortunate I was (in hindsight) to be so insulated in PA to spiral

[fairy-ganj-mother]

ahhh growing up....

#unhinged tag time #woo #i just reblogged an old post and wrote in the tags how i'm so the same but actually #i then realized a major difference is I basically stopped drinking and doing drugs LMAO #other than smoking weed but like I live in CO now and it's legal and i had a med card in PA before i left #so i don't do illegal shit anymore basically and thank god for that hahaha #also just reflecting on how fortunate I was (in hindsight) to be so insulated in PA to spiral #that big college campus and my hometown were such safe places lol #I could explore but like was still close to home and what i knew #interesting #also of course noticing how harddddd i was trending gay like right before I started dating jeff #so ya know those thoughts again come up and the what ifs #also realistically i can think of several men that I definitely would've probably hooked up with between 2015-2016 if i hadn't been w jeff #a certain person in my hometown and probs some people who hung around carpetland that one summer at minimum lol #so i'm like in my head now i'm like what if #but upon some reflection it's like #i'm still bi and livin in a heteronormative world and would've been pushed into those situations more often #no matter how much i've insisted i lean more towrads attracted to women since i was like ...18? #been making these private lately but i think i'm gonna just post this one #reading how unhinged i was in my tumblr tags in 2015 via my archive has inspired me to be publicly unhinged in the tags once again lmaooo #t