#also im not entirely sure i wont have panic attacks while on placement because STRESS

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#vent tw #i love emails 👍👍👍👍 #I love emailing being like Hi Im Coming Into Your Place Of Buisness Next Week UHHHHH Can I Meet The Team #Yes I Should Have Done This Weeks Ago but have you considered sending emails makes me hyperventilate and cry? #also im not entirely sure i wont have panic attacks while on placement because STRESS #I have spent 3 hours Not Emailing them its so fun #and now its six so they wont even see it #and i wont even have proper disability supports because i am stupid and hate emails #AND im changing disability officer due to my old one leaving #and she was the autism specialist so god knows how good the new one will be (bad probably) #anyway if im dead for the next while its because Im working (which stresses me out) in my hometown (also stresses me to high heaven) #i keep imagining running into my childhood bully and like I wouldnt be able escape him because im working #Even seeing people from primary school who were nice (aka not actively nasty) to me makes me anxious #mmmmmm yea not a good time #but at least that one email has been sent #and I might even get paid (wahoo) #also when i snuffed out my candle there was a sizzle and now my fingers smell like cooking meat should i be concerned? #it didnt really hurt so im probably fine (from experince i know even minor burns hurt like a bitch)