#also dealing with other people's unexpected death which was scarier than my own death anyway

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did I tell you guys I apparently accidentally overdosed on a brownie? yeah I didn't nearly die because you can't really die from THC poisoning but I definitely THOUGHT I had died (or at least become detached from the physical existence as whole) and that was the #1 scariest experience of my life (*) and I kinda wished someone had warned me that was a possibility

I think my mistake was eating it with an empty stomach. Plz don't repeat my mistake y'all.

#* i didn't wanna add this in the body of the post but I have had some close brushes with death and they didn't scare me like this #also dealing with other people's unexpected death which was scarier than my own death anyway #thc #tw drugs #tw unreality #i had some weird unreality experiences before but they were mostly ok #this one felt like I would never come out of it #it was probably the memory thing that triggered it #also I think I might not have dealt with some of my trauma this year #i'm not sure how to deal with any of this #just #I really don't want to be trapped in a state where reality literally can't exist ever again #on an unrelated note #I think being neurodivergent makes me connect easier to ppl who use acid? idk #I'm kinda scared to use drugs in general and I think I'll be extra careful from now on