#also a fun fact abt beau is he has emetophobia just like me we are doing exposure therapy TOGETHER

[thelostboys87]

literally when i was in the grocery store an hour ago and i went to open my grocery list note but turns out the last note was my vague playing around w my lover boy new opening idea and i was like oh that’s not produce that’s beau gagging whilst two guys have sex next to him 👍 and then i was like wait let me preserve this roughest of the rough writing so i can capture the evolution of an opening and write an essay about openings one day. can you tell im thinking a lot abt novel openings right now…..

#this feels so exposing this is SOOOOO rough #NOT a full paragraph to be clear…. #cannot figure out the sentence beats AT ALL #there’s meant to be something between the second line and he’s always been on the other side I just don’t know What #but I like that line about how he’s always been on the other side and it needs smth in between but i like how it falls into using specific #pronouns referring specifically to bobby but not saying his name….. #don’t know what I’m doing with maybe they aren’t lovers but have a vague idea. smoky synth beat HITSSSS though #im kinda pissed bc i lost a whole thread of the chapter cutting out a plot line but this opening feels more #lover boy than the original one. the original one is actually going at the end now LOL #but this is very fitting #vomit and gay sex is like the epitome of lover boy i fear. very bodily fluid novel #also a fun fact abt beau is he has emetophobia just like me we are doing exposure therapy TOGETHER