#all my mutuals were like omg sarah take it slow and i was like nah i can handle it bc ive handled it before. i have never handled it WELL

[djsadbean]

Are you on Hiatus?

If so, good for you, everyone deserves a break once in a while.

sort of ^^ i realized i was going too hard too quickly with my art and writing so im taking it slow for a bit and trying not to draw on my ipad unless its for commissions. i also graduated from uni this past may so im trying to unlearn the insanity that is academia xD idk im just trying to calm down i guess. i have certainly not left the fandom <3 im lovingly tormented by amazing cheese every DAY /lh but yeah just chillin and trying to learn how to be me without feeling very anxious about productivity

(i finished school in a shortened time and it was very rigorous. it ruined my sleep schedule and raised my anxiety levels a lot and i never really recovered from that or the anxiety from high school. i took oct/nov off to try and relax. i hope this makes sense)

#funny thing is everyone WARNED ME LMAO #all my mutuals were like omg sarah take it slow and i was like nah i can handle it bc ive handled it before. i have never handled it WELL #anyway sorry mutuals im so so dumb and u all were right #also doesnt help that #ive been going to school every day since i was two years old and idk how to enjoy myself :( #learning is taking a while bc every time i make progress the outside world rapidly crumbles around me and i feel a pressure to do more #i hope this makes sense #i want to do things i enjoy without feeling like i need to rush or perform #if my art isnt genuine i dont think id be happy #sorry for the anxiety drop today xD #djsadbean answers