#ahad's bitterness seeping into every part of that response agh

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Bonus asks that are only for if you feel like answering more questions!

39 for Mata-shali, 20 for Opal, and 50 for Ahad!

These are so good....characters when they are fucked up... <33 39. the most morally deprived/morally just thing they've ever done? [Mata-shali]

I genuinely don’t know if it’s possible to pick a top morally deprived thing Mata-shali has done. She never did anything especially bad while completely in her right mind, and after her sanity nosedives it’s really just one bloody massacre after another. I guess a top contender could be how she once managed to wipe an entire high-populated city off of the map, slaughtering so many people in such brutal ways that the place literally became uninhabitable afterward due to the number of violent, restless spirits left behind once the bloodshed was over.

As for most morally good, I mean, volunteering to sacrifice your sanity and potentially the entirety of your personhood for the sake of your village has to be top of that list, right? Even if the way it turned out maybe wasn’t ideal (wiping out an entire army without them having any chance to surrender is maybe not the most moral action??), the self-sacrifice for the benefit of everyone else was an incredibly good-hearted thing to do, especially considering what she was giving up. Also, a huge honorable mention for how much time and energy Mata-shali put into working against her new compulsions post-Brightening despite the fact that her mind was just completely shattered.

20. the worst thing they've ever wished for? [Opal]

Well. There was a time when Opal really, (mostly) genuinely, hated Ace enough to wish him dead. Or, at the very least, for them to be grabbed and shipped back to the Underdark and Goldcliff for whatever might await them there. Because Opal can be extremely dramatic about his breakups when he wants to be. Especially when the person he’d broken up with was actively trying to sabotage his success and dethrone the very people who he worked for. It also didn’t help that Ace was a constant reminder that Opal had fully abandoned his own morals in favor of science (and money, and renown, and status), and Opal pretty much figured that if Ace was gone, then his intense guilt would disappear too! Plus he’d be able to get his work done so much faster if he didn’t have to keep screening everyone who came in to see if they were a spy or constantly moving his setup to keep anyone from destroying anything important.

50. a moment that keeps them up at night? [Ahad] I mean, he’s gone over every aspect of the relationship that led to his downfall hundreds of times while lying awake in bed. Were there signs it wasn’t going to work out? Probably. Should he have given up so much for her, considering her history? Absolutely not. Does he stay awake practically every night replaying the day that, just a couple of weeks after he gave up his godhood for them, they dumped him? Of course! Especially considering how shitty they were about it. Ahad didn’t see it coming in the slightest; they were just returning to a shared room at an inn on a particularly dreary day when out of the blue she tells him that she’s not interested in him anymore and that they should go their separate ways. And they say it all in the most casual tone without a hint of an apology, as if he hadn’t abandoned his literal godhood for them. And the more Ahad pleads and tries to talk to her the more bored she seems to get until eventually she just walks past him, collects her things from their room, and leaves. And maybe it was so devastating that it still keeps him from sleeping a decade later, but that’s fine! He should’ve known better than to fall in love with some mortal whore of a bard anyways!

#ahad's bitterness seeping into every part of that response agh #was so stuck on whether to do the breakup or when he first fell in love #they both allow him no sleep whatsoever #god these are all such good questions bestie #brainrot central #ask game answered! #mata-shali #opal #ahad