#ah yes. dialogue. about nothing. scandalous. 🤦🤦🤦🤦

[running-in-the-dark]

.......

#it's just. so fun when you're yearning for something hard enough that it feels like you've got a fever. I... am not cut out for this #(writing things. that involve people. that I want to touch. badly.) #it's literally so ridiculous. can't even write a conversation with someone without making myself feel like I'm ill lol #nothing is happening! not the slightest bit of anything at all. and I'm just sitting here fanning myself like it's the middle of summer and #I'm about to pass out #this also isn't good for my productivity. because it's more fun than doing something useful #also much MUCH better than just thinking about it. I don't know why it took me 32 years to realise that hey. my mind can't drift off in the #middle of every second sentence if I'm just writing it down. seems obvious now. but. I am not smart. so. #i mean it is kind of nice to just. get to do the same parts over and over again for literal months but also. it gets frustrating. #anyway. that is too much information again because I already feel weird enough about this #but you know how it is. I have a thought so the mutuals need to know. etc. #man I am stupid #annnd I think I need to stop for tonight because my head genuinely feels like it's gonna start melting any minute now #ah yes. dialogue. about nothing. scandalous. 🤦🤦🤦🤦 #personal