#ah maybe the anxiety spikes before a workday because i know for a fact that i will be misgendered at LEAST 15 times a day

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I'm being interviewed tomorrow about my job at the library and there is both great fear and excitement in my heart

#why am i so nervous fr #like i'm going to mess up an interview by getting an answer wrong? doesn't make sense #ah maybe the anxiety spikes before a workday because i know for a fact that i will be misgendered at LEAST 15 times a day #at this point it's actually inexcusable and ridiculous and i'll probably have to take it to my other supervisor #....................................... but i want a good chance at getting this job again in the summer #literally though my supervisor has absolutely zero excuse. sometimes i correct her upwards of 5 times in the same minute #and miraculously she forgets as soon as she hears it #or on the off-chance she takes the correction and goes 'HE!' and slaps her forehead she immediately then says '...they!' #like no. not 'they'. no. that is not what i said. it might have been what i said 5 months ago (he/they) but explicitly not now. #the only way i can be clearer with her is if i be a giant asshole about it #being on T is making my patience for misgendering just collapse lol. when i hear 'she' i'm like ??? who?? are you dumb?? #and then i remember most people just don't know lol. but those who DO have zero excuse now. zero. #tell you what. i'll keep a tally tomorrow and report back!