#again this is after like. idk 7-8 sets of lower body work? with 10 pound dumbbells

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as per the youtube program i'm attempting with my fave fitfluencer du jour, saturday was shoulders, sunday was abs (my nemesis because my abs are the weakest abs in the history of abs), and then yesterday was full body which meant it was the first time i was doing any kind of lower body exercise and i thought it was nice that it started with a full body day since only half the time was spent on lower body stuff so maybe it would ease me in but ohhhh my god standing up and sitting down today has been torture... today was supposed to be glutes but my butt was like Absolutely Not so i did one of the fitfluencer's shorter upper body workouts to give my butt a break. really looking forward to a week or two from now when i will still be getting sore but not in a way that is like. debilitating. i may take tomorrow off or do like just some chill cardio depending on how i feel when i wake up because today i feel Groggy although it is hard to identify a cause there given that my sleep cycle has been totally fucked for several months/my whole life basically. on the bright side the past two nights i've gone to bed at a reasonable time and slept almost a solid 9 hours which is like an unheard of combination for me and does feel delicious.

#also my abs are sore enough that i had to change all the planks in today's yoga with adriene to downward dogs bc i like #could not get into a plank #not like. couldn't hold a plank. i have never been great at holding a plank and am worse now than i was 6 months ago. #but like. truly could not make the shape with my body today. got 80% of the way there and my core said 'we are on our union mandated break' #if it seems like i am devoting a lot of mental attention to the process of attempting to get back into working out #the reason for that is that today i am thinking about it every time i stand up or sit down #i have to like use my arms to lower myself into chairs #again this is after like. idk 7-8 sets of lower body work? with 10 pound dumbbells #truly not an impressive amount of Working Out #i am just very out of shape and a sensitive flower