#aeor/cognouza was the weirdest thing any of them ever went thru but at least they all went thru some weird shit before that? essek did Not.

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it's just. how do you be normal after All That happens to you. how can you handle being around someone who looks exactly like and sometimes kinda acts like your dead friend who is also someone who looks exactly like and sometimes kinda acts like one of the most terrifying people you ever met. also your friend died for you and you killed that other guy. how. jester lavorre what is your post canon mental state I need to know how you're doing

#this goes for all of them but jester specifically I think was hit VERY hard and she also spent a hellish amount of time with lucien #paying very close attention to him to prove her theory that molly was influencing him #she was so close to molly and close to lucien in another way and just. like. what happens when you start seeing echoes of the wrong guy in #this new guy. how do you handle that. it's not kingsleys fault!! the thing is she would want to be friends with him too!! but oh my god #she would try to do that right off the bat literally less than two weeks after dealing with lucien's everything shes hanging around this #guy who looks exactly like and sometimes acts like him?? like. babe?? #yasha would also have difficulties but in a different way. she doesn't fucking care about lucien she just sees molly and. this isn't molly #this isn't molly this is someone else who is entirely deserving of the freedom to be someone else and sometimes molly is so visibly in him #but the difference is yasha sticks with beau while jester and fjord go off with king #fjord I think would be able to compartmentalize a little better until he can process it just bc he was never like. attached to molly in #the same way jester bleeding heart lavorre was and because like. yeah I'm sure he saw molly in lucien but lucien was never anything but an #enemy to him so yeah he sees molly and lucien both echoing thru king but king is his own dude and. I think just. fjord is just more likely #to leave a room if he's in distress than jester is jdjfkfngn. he can say hey king you're great but I need a sec. jester would hate to make #king feel like he ever upset her even tho it literally isn't his fault and he knows it but also he would still feel a little bad and she #can't do that to him so it's a mess. beau and caleb both arent around him a lot for a while and are probably careful when they are around #him until they're sure they're not going to panic. I think caddy would like to not be afraid of him but like. lucien was fucking scary #essek too but I think like. caddy could at times just fully vibe even with lucien around. sometimes he just. vibed with lucien #essek only interacted with him during that awful final stretch that was just. racing against him and fighting him and like. that time in #aeor/cognouza was the weirdest thing any of them ever went thru but at least they all went thru some weird shit before that? essek did Not. #his life was nobility and comfort and treason and regret and friendship and cold and then the absolute worst week of his entire life #so I think he would visibly startle at kingsley the first dozen times they meet afterwards just like. bc that's that fuckig lucien guy