#YAAAAAY YIPPEE dorry. im just sooo stressed overthis AND my matriculation exams nextweek im goig to gAuhhhuh

[transylvanianfamilies]

ive been trying to contact a health centre in my area for months (it not working is my fault tho i was doing it wrong cuz im stupid as hell) to get an appointment to a doctor my previous Transgender Doctor who recently lost her right to prescribe hormones (bc she was actually providing trans people healthcare and the finnish trans "healthcare" system relies on endless layers of bureaucracy to make sure trannies dont get healthcare) recommended. and i finally was able to contact them only to find out the doctor i was recommended doesnt like. work there anymore or something. so i was scheduled an appointment w just some random doctor and its like a 70/30 chance shes transphobic which matters a LOT cuz shes supposed to write a letter to the trans healthcare clinic abt me that corrects my previous letter made by a psychiatrist who lied about everything i said to her when writing the letter. and me getting into the trans healthcare program All depends on this letter. although even if i do get in the waiting time is so long no one really knows how long it is and at the clinic they only employ actual terf doctors (when u google them theyve all written articles abt predatory trannies making little girls take testosterone) and ur forced to go through so many traumatizing and invasive appointments (had just one appointment there when i was 15 and they asked me how i have sex and masturbate and what makes me "not just gay" etc etc etc questions w no right answers) and after that u MIGHT just get a hormone prescription but probably not. even if youre already on DIY hormones (like me) and this process takes years and years and years. and if u want surgery you should just kill yourself. so anyway pray that i get in and can get retraumatized by that clinic so that i just might be able to continue taking hrt (otherwise its just DIY but i rly want that prescription bc im poor and dont want to constantly wonder whether i have to quit soon)

#YAAAAAY YIPPEE dorry. im just sooo stressed overthis AND my matriculation exams nextweek im goig to gAuhhhuh