#XiSang is the only pairing I do not regularly ship

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XiSang Twitter Thread that Twitter Broke and So It’s Tumblr’s Problem Now

really any combo of 3zunSang works for me tbh, but I’ve recently enjoyed the thought of everything being canon ……until NHS decides he’s going to take LXC away from A-Yao too, just because he can.

he’s grieving, er-ge 🥲 and Da-ge would’ve wanted you to take care of him…

I swear I do like A-Yao but also I just want him to have to suffer ☺️ because he’s made his choice. No Lan Furen for him. And it’s not like NHS is doing it on purpose, right?

And the last thing he sees at Guanyin Temple is LXC finally letting him go, like the monster he is. ☺️

I mean, it’s fine. Probably makes it easier for Da-ge to forgive him in the coffin, tbh.

“Crafty little fucker, isn’t he?” Da-ge says, more than a little smug. He has mixed feelings on the subject of his didi’s actions but still, being impressed is a major one.

Anyway I believe LXC’s seclusion still happens and at first NHS thinks he’s won, what does he care about er-ge? he deserves to suffer a bit.

but then he feels bad? his childhood affection for the man died with Da-ge but not all of it. This game to steal LXC wasn’t all pretend…

Somehow he manages to steal LXC out from under Wangji’s nose (who does NOT approve!! evil man doesn’t deserve!!!) and take him back to Qinghe.

Slowly, it does help, actually. Nobody looks at Xichen like they pity him. The Nie don’t treat him as anything more than a man. One to be respected, yes, but not like he’s made of glass.

And with nothing more to hide, NHS starts to outwardly be the sect leader that he has been all along. He’s fair and just, kind, wise. LXC sits in on his councils and is mildly blown away by how capable he really is 0-0

it’s kinda hot, ngl.

the Lan do need Xichen back eventually, or at least for him to pass the mantle of SL onto Wangji. and Xichen knows what he’s expected to do. he’s always done what was expected, even if it kept him apart from Da-ge and A-Yao. he’s never been selfish.

And NHS, self-declared king of bratty behavior (though that time has mostly passed), asks him to stay. No wheedling, no tears, no tricks.

They do, I think, have to fight about it a bit. NHS did pursue Xichen just for the sake of torturing A-Yao, to be fair. But that was just how it started. And really, did Xichen not want someone to choose him, damn all responsibility?

Hell, NHS would give up his position, if he asked. He never wanted it anyway. That wasn’t something Da-ge and A-Yao would offer. They loved him, but…life got in the way

And LXC realizes that maybe he does want to be selfish. That he exists to be more than the perfect son, the First Jade. That he can just be Lan Huan, and position doesn’t have control over his happiness anymore.

Love is tentative between them.

LXC exhales for the first time in his life. Books and sweets appear on his bedside table as if by magic. He writes music, and poetry, and leaves those pages on Huaisang’s desk.

They laugh together, for the first time in more than a decade. They cry over memories. Happiness sneaks up on them through the clouds of grief. It’s not the life either of them envisioned.

But if this was a world in which they could wait for the return of those lost, I think they would. And they wouldn’t be alone.

…….this was not as fucky as I intended it to be but that’s because I like all parties involved. also LXC deserves therapy. they all do, really.

#xisang #lan xichen #nie huaisang #and before any of you people who are not from Twitter come for me #I’m Niecest trash and yes I believe this was a 4 way love square #XiSang is the only pairing I do not regularly ship #and yet here we are