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lesbianmity · 4 years

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Spinel and Pink Pearl trying to watch a movie together but they just end up falling asleep while cuddling.

[@chuck-the-cheese-family @kyoryu | Got a little carried away with the possibilites on this prompt. Lowkey inspired by the song 'Recess' :P]

Stressing

Word count: 1000+

Themes: Fluff, Hurt/Comfort. Chuck E Cheese AU

I'm actually proud of this? Wow

(Things in italic are Spinel's thoughts)

...

Spinel goes to the back room, finally taking off that stupid rat head she had to wear. She slowly unzips the rest of the rat costume, putting it away and finally leaving the Chuck E Cheese building

Spinel checks her phone. "Missing call from... oh, fuck" She thought as she looked the notifications

[Missed call from: Peeps 💟💟

Me [Spinel]: Hey, doll, sorry about that. Forgot my cellphone exists for a sec

Peeps 💟💟: It's okay, just wanted to check on you. Are you okay?

Me: Yeah, wdym checking on me?

Peeps 💟💟: You seemed kinda upset today... Just wanted to make sure you're fine

Me: I look like that everyday. Really, Peeps, I am fine. Just got outta work. I'm tired

Peeps 💟💟: Oh... You just seemed so stressed today...

Me: I just need to rest, Peeps

Peeps 💟💟: Would you... Like to come over anyway? You could, you know, stay the night? If you wanna to of course

Me: Wait, what about Bloop and Yelp? Y'know, randomly inviting me over isn't the best thing to do. Also, I get too lost between all of you

Peeps 💟💟: They won't be here tonight. They planned a date and will stay in a motel or smth

Peeps 💟💟: Thought they would talk about it in work? They didn't shut up abt that here lol

Peeps 💟💟: So, are you coming?

Me: ...

Me: I'll be there in an hour]

The Chuck E Cheese employee wasn't having one of her best days. She wasn't reeeally in the mood to go anywhere else but her house, but she also couldn't say no to her lovely girlfriend. "That girl must have a spell on me. Her apartment is much more comfortable thoughm. Maybe it won't be that bad"

Spinel starts walking her way to Peeps' house, losing herself in her thoughts during the process. "I really, really hate this fucking job. Yet, I should be greatful for it. Who else would hire me, after all? I really am a clown, at least I'm good at it." She thought, refusing to let the small tears on the corner of her eyes fall

An hour or so later, she's finally there. Taking a deep breath, she knocks the front door a few times before Peeps opened it. "Hey, Doll~" She smiled a bit, for the first time that day

"Hey, dear." She greeted her girlfriend with a kiss on the top of her head, making her blush a bit. "I'm kinda busy right now. Made some plans for tonight, if you don't mind." Peeps continued, grabbing some recently washed sheets. "Would you take a shower while I finish everything? You taste and smell like cheese right now." She giggled. "You left some clothes here last time you stayed, but you can wear one of my pajamas, I don't mind."

"Yeah, sure... Sound great." Spinel agreed as her girlfriend (finally) stopped talking. She went to Peeps' room to get some clothes, so she could change in the bathroom. She grabs the first pajama she finds - a rose shirt with pink shorts. "Better than nothing..."

Peeps hears Spinel closing the bathroom door behind her. The house went silent, the shower sound being the only noise. Around five, ten minutes later, the shower stops, and a little bit after that, the silence breaks. "Peeeeeeps, can I borrow some of your eyeliner?" Spinel yells from the bathroom

"Spinel, isn't it too late to put on any makeup?"

"Nah, I usually sleep wearing it."

"... Go ahead then"

A couple of minutes pass and Spinel finally leaves the bathroom and goes to the kitchen. She was wearing her girlfriend's clothes, slippers and less makeup than usual. Her pigtails were also gone. She looked kinda tired, but less stressed than earlier. She caught Peeps staring at her, blushing and smiling. "Heh, see something ya like~?"

"Ah! I just- you look... nice..." She blushed harder, walking towards the table, that had two plates, two soda cups and a pizza box. "Ordered some pizza... Hope it doesn't sound... inappropriate for the situation..." Peeps said, as she realised Spinel works at a Chuck E Cheese

"Heh... You really like to spoil me, don'tcha?" She tried to giggle the awkward conversation off, taking a seat. Peeps giggles along. Again, silence...

"So... These were your plans for tonight?" Spinel asks. "Not that I'm complaining of course!" She quickly corrected herself

"One of my plans, actually." Peeps said, before taking another bite of her pizza. "I have something else planned, as you're going to stay the night." She smiled

"Mind tellin' me what it is?"

"Wait and see, sugar." Peeps teased

After their finish eating, Peeps puts the dirt dishes in the sink. "Hey, lemme wash these. You already did too much for me. I insist"

"Oh, no, no, no. You really don't need to! Go to my room, wait me there."

"You sure? You did so much today, I just--"

"No, really, just wait me there!" Peeps reassured, turning the handle and opening the faucet, as Spinel shrugged and did as she said

Sitting on the corner of Peeps' bed, Spinel looked around. The place was really organized. There was some of Bloop's and Yelp's things on the floor though. "Heh, look, she also has some weird collections. Nice."

Not too much later, Peeps goes to the room, holding a bowl. "Since we both have work tomorrow and can't do much since we have to sleep early, I thought we could watch some movies together until we fall asleep. I got some snacks too. What'cha say?"

"Sounds perfect." Spinel responds, not even looking to her girlfriend (nor actually paying attention)

"Hey, you there? Earth to Spinel, are you there??"

"Oh? Yeah, yeah." She turns her body to Peeps, breaking her thoughts. "Sorry, what were you saying?"

"Movies, snacks, what do you think?"

"Sure, sure, why not? Uh... Do you have a matress or something for me to lay or--"

"Uhh, yeah, haha, about that... I was thinking we could... You know... Lay down together and... Maybe cuddle or something?" You could easily tell she was nervous. "I meAN IF YOU WANT TO OF COURSE"

Spinel stopped working for a second. She started blushing harder and harder at this thought. This was certainly not something she was expecting... Okay, okay, maybe she was expecting, but still, she was NOT ready. "I-I... Well... If you insist- I mean, you didn't insist, but yeah... If you, want to, you know..."

Peeps giggled at her girlfriend's reaction, even though she was just as nervous as her. She puts the bowl on the side of the bed, laying down carefully. "Come here!"

Slowly, Spinel gets closer to Peeps. "Okay, Spinel, DON'T blow it. You've never been this close to someone. Don't ruin i-" Her thoughts got interrupted by her girlfriend, who gently picked her up and put Spinel on her lap, placing her head on her chest. Spinel froze

With one hand, Peeps hugs Spinel. With her free hand, she turns the tv on. Knowing Spinel wasn't that picky, she choses the first movie she sees on Netflix

Spinel was honestly more focused on her girlfriend's delicated touchs than the movie. With one hand, Peeps was running her fingers through Spinel's hair (and sometimes behind her ear and neck, to get that silly giggle and smile she loves), with the other, she was rubbing her back. It didn't take too long for Peeps to notice tears falling on her gown. She didn't want to talk about that, and just waited until Spinel actually wanted to talk

"... Peeps?" Spinel mumbled, getting her girlfriend to look at her, as she changes her position to look up. "Thanks... A lot. You didn't have to do all that, really. I don't deserve you sometimes... Thanks." She said, more tears falling from her eyes. She started sniffling and wiping her cheeks, until Peeps cups her face, kissing her

"It's just... You seemed so tired today. Like, way more tired than the usual. And I know you hate your job already, and you know I hate seeing you like that." She kissed the top of Spinel's head

Smiling and blushing, she fixes her position once again, resting her head on Peeps' chest, listening to her heartbeat. "Love you." She muttered, between her breath, slowly drifting off to sleep

"Love you, too." She smiled, closing her eyes, not even bothering about turning off the tv

The rest of the night was quiet and calm,

... This until Bloop and Yelp came back from their failed date, and caught them

Long story short, they won't hear the end of this so soon

...

Wow my first time (well, third if a couple of unfinished drabbles count) writing these characters. Don't think it's that bad tbh? I'm actually proud of it! :o

#steven universe #spinel #pink pearl #spinearl #thanks tumblr for finally posting this thing #Spinel is a touch starved clown #mbfly's writing

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velvetgons · 5 years

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hyunsuk as your boyfriend

word count; 3.3k i’m sorry

warnings; hmm i don’t think anything but possibly swearing i can’t be sure!!

requested; no uwu i’m a new blog :)

(also to gif makers; if you don’t want me to use your gif for any reason please just tell me and i’ll remove it!! apologies in advance if that’s the case!!)

gif credit; bggon on tumblr!! please tell me if you’d like it removed :)

ok so uh let’s just give it a lil background

you decide to go out n get some new clothes bc u know. u got some extra money to spend why not

and you take some of your friends!! and you’re shopping and having a good time and everything is great

until you see this cute lil blue dress and you’re like ‘that’s The One, i need that dress……very necessary to my daily life’

so you tell your friends that you’re just gonna go find your size and they’re all “yes!! get the cute dress!! we’ll see you at the check-out!!”

so you’re about to grab the dress when you see,, the exact same dress except this time! it’s in red

so now you’re completely torn obviously because :// do you want the blue one or the red one,, they’re both cute,, but what’s gonna look nicer on you,,

and you’re just kinda stood there staring at them both because it turns out both colours have your size and now you don’t know what to do with urself

n just as your about to pout and go find one of your friends to help you pick you hear a Boy VoiceTM

and it’s just a quiet lil, “you should get the red one!”

but it makes you turn around because whom said that to you

and you see….a cute boy….just kinda smiling at you while he looks at a shirt or something,, and he smiles even bigger when you look at him and just kinda shrugs before saying, “it’s a prettier colour!!”

part of you is like ?? i’m not gonna get the red one just because a random stranger thinks it’s a cool colour

but the other part of you wins because it’s like “:) you’re right red is a rlly cute colour :) i’ll get this one thank u fashion advice stranger”

and he smiles back at you before he turns back to the clothes he’s looking at and you know you’re supposed to just grab the dress and go now

but. you,, want the cute boy stranger to turn around again,, so u grab another random two articles of clothing and tap him on the back to be like “what about out of these two??”

and you just. keep doing it. and he keeps answering,, to the point where he doesn’t even turn around anymore because he’s giving you all his Focus

so now you have an armful of clothes that ur not gonna buy and he’s offering to carry some for u while u get them checked out and ur like “haha! of course! this is a great idea!”

and like. he isn’t dumb he knows what ur doing so he’s like. hyping himself up in his head like ‘come on!!! she’s clearly into you!! you’ve got this!! just…ask her out and if she says no! it’s all good! we’ve got this bro!’

so he takes a deep ass breath (n u think for a second that you’ve done something wrong) n is like “or…u could like idk man just…idk get the cute red dress and wear it…when i pick you up for a date…maybe like…tomorrow or something…” and in his head it sounds really smooth n nonchalant

but in reality it’s just a jumble of incoherence but you heard date and tomorrow so you’re like “yes!!!!!!!!!! yes this is Very Good i am free tomorrow pls do that” n give him your phone to save his number in

and he’d save it as ‘fashion god (a.k.a hyunsuk)’ with like fifty hearts next to it

((also as a side note you’d have to text him ur own name because he wouldn’t even ask for it in the store…… a charismatic king))

and that would be the story you’d have to give to your kids one day about how you met their dad :) very romantic

anyway! with that being said! let’s get into actually dating him

hyunsuk is a Loud Boy and is most of the time a Happy Boy

and he would constantly try and make sure that you’re feeling equally as happy as him because!! he really just hates the idea of you being upset or down

he hates it so much when your upset because of something outside of his control (like school, work, college) because he just doesn’t know how to fix it?? and he’d resort to doing really dumb stuff to get you to smile at him !! because seeing you :( makes his heart physically hurt

honestly he would melt if you did the same thing for him…..like….if you showed clear concern for him or hyped him up in anything he does the babey smile you know the one loll and feels his heart go zooooooom

i don’t think he’d actively go out of his way to show affection in public but it would definitely just happen

like. sometimes he’s just walking and the next thing he knows he’s tangling his hand with yours and giving your knuckles each a lil kiss

or you’re standing in front of him and his arms just kinda outstretch and pull you really close to him and he’s burying his face into the crook of your neck

or you’re just stood next to him minding your business when you’re tugged into his side and feel him leaving lil kisses on your cheeks while he calls you cute

all of his friends are Disgusted and beg him to not do that right in front of them 24/7 but like. he genuinely doesn’t notice until he’s already done it

however! if you initiated affection (in public) he,,,, blushes,,

in private you two are always attached somehow so it’s more unusual for you two not to be touching

his favourite form of affection would be when you were cuddling and you snuggled your face into his chest ! he’d literally go blank for a second before he’d yell something abt u being cute

i also personally see hyunsuk as someone who would wanna talk about so much all the time??? like…his mind is just buzzing with stuff all the time and he’d love having someone to share that with

and you’d have to do this late at night a lot (because of his schedule) but when he’d come to yours and if you were still awake, you’d both kinda just lay facing each other in bed with ur pinkies linked really loosely while you talked about a bunch of different stuff

they’d be long conversations too!!! you wouldn’t need to ask each other what you’d been up to that day because you’d be talking pretty much all day oof

so you’d be talking to each other about random stuff you thought of!! he’ll ask you about your views on stuff like ghosts and aliens and conspiracy theories, and you’ll get to hear his, and he’ll talk to you about his favourite songs and why they’re his favourites and he’ll really want you to explain yours too, he’d also ask dumb stuff like “do u think fish can see water” and would want a genuine answer

but overall those would go on for hours and you’d only know he was ready to finally sleep when he curled an arm around your waist to pull you closer to him

speaking of cuddling!! hyunsuk would go between being the little spoon or having you lie on his chest to sleep

he loves being the little spoon because,, it’s such a warm experience,, so safe,, and bundled up,, and he’d definitely wrap himself up in a blanket before doing it for Maximum Comfort

but! he also loves having you sleep on his chest because “you’re my baby!! you’re so small it’s where you belong!!” (even if you’re taller than him hyunsuk what) he just,, loves how close you feel to him when he knows you can hear his heartbeat and he can feel how warm you are and he can see you falling asleep and it makes him feel so !! warm inside

he’d definitely introduce you to his friends really quick into dating you lol because?? what if you guys don’t get along?? they literally mean The World to him??

but of course you would i mean. what’s not to like

and they’d tell you embarrassing stories about him (seunghun would go into immense detail of how hyunsuk talked about your first date, including an oscar worthy rendition of hyunsuk talking about your first kiss)

you’d probably tell hyunsuk that you were scared of byounggon and hyunsuk would CACKLE

he’d be like “him?? he?? he’s a Baby! he’s the Sweetest Boy!” and then place all of his efforts into getting you and byounggon to be certified best friends

and like. it would work but more because you and byounggon had to bond over who would take care of him in his chaotic inventive ways to get you and byounggon to talk and communicate (including: accidentally locking you two in the practice room so you’d talk through ‘your issues with one another’ which would literally end up with you showing byounggon dumb pictures you had of hyunsuk on your phone and him giving you music recommendations)

[a/n; using that as a way to talk about something else,, writer of the year :)] we all obviously know that hyunsuk is very music orientated as a person!!! and he wouldn’t hesitate to share that with you through either his performances, his producing, or just music he likes

he’d make multiple playlists for you that would be for different things! (songs he wants to show you, songs that remind him of you, songs he wants to you to listen to and tell him whether performing them would be a good idea etc.)

he’d also love for you to show him your favourite music because he’d personally see music sharing as something very intimate and special!!! and if you ever told him about songs that reminded you of him he might actually have a heart palpitation

but i think in general he’d wanna be involved with something you’re interested in because you supported him so much in his passion!! if you were into art, he’d wanna know all about what you were drawing/painting and he’d find cute museums to go to together! if you were into writing, he’d wanna know what you were writing about and he’d wanna find you cool notebooks and stationary to use for it! he’d just wanna involve himself in any way possible to let u know he cared about it too!!

now onto his other Big Hobby

he…is now your personal stylist…a fashion king…he will not let you change his name in your phone…

he wants to go shopping to find cool clothes all the time! and now he has someone else to take with him! and someone else to try and dress!

i know there’s like the dumb Boyfriend Trope of ‘no :( you can’t wear that because it’s revealing :(‘ but like………hyunsuk wouldn’t care lmao

he sees something he thinks you’d look cute in?? he immediately jumps to get you to try it on for him!! it’s not a weird thing he’s just a fashion king and needs everyone to know that you two are the Best Dressed Couple

speaking of which! dating hyunsuk would be such a healthy thing !

he’d be a lil heavy-handed at first just because he’s not 100% on what he’s actually supposed to be doing

but once he figures out how dating actually works, it’s over for literally everyone else

like, at first, he might get jealous quite a lot because :(( what if u find someone better :(( but then he’d kinda re-evaluate and be like ‘i could…literally talk about this…what’s stopping me…’

and then you’d have a conversation about it where you’d reassure him that he’s your man!! you like Love him and stuff!!

from then on i think dealing with issues that came up in your relationship would just,,, get easy to him??

like, you’re jealous over someone else? that’s okay, you guys can talk about it and work it out!! he’s stressed and tired and just wants alone time? he’ll explain it to you in a calm n rational way without snapping at you!! you snap at him because you’re stressed and tired and just want alone time? he understands, but he tells you to tell him next time!!

he just can’t comprehend that any of the things you two work through are actually genuine problems for other couples because?? he finds them so easy to avoid

that’s not to say you two wouldn’t argue, because like, everyone does. but arguments would just,, end so quickly because

first of all: he hates there being tension between you two, and hates the idea of upsetting you even more

and second of all: he’d calm down quick enough to talk things through calmly and discuss a good way for both of you to fix your problems

and ! the relationship would never ever feel one-sided

you’d support him so much!! you’d remind him to get sleep, and to eat and drink regularly, and to not take the criticisms too harshly because he knows how good he is

((a side note: you’d probably Go Off at some point about yg and how gross he is for being so mean and never complimenting hyunsuk because you knew it upset him and you’d be ranting and gesturing around with your hands and probably yelling a lil bit and hyunsuk would just be looking at you like (✿╹◡╹) because his heart is so warm while you’re talking about burning the yg building down for him))

and he’d support you just as much!! he’d remind you to not overthink things, and to take breaks if you had studying to do, and would call you at least once a day if his schedule was packed just to get a quick run-down on how your day was going

also, on the topic of phone calls, sometimes he’d just call you and leave the call going while he did other stuff

most of the time it’d be while he did writing or producing

but if he wanted you to ‘be there’ during his dance practices he’d facetime and just kinda,,, leave it going while him and everyone else did their routine

and you’d either be doing other stuff or watching but either way you’d hype them all up for how well they were doing

and hyunsuk is（￣ε￣ʃƪ）because oh boy!! he loves you a whole bunch

onto another topic but he’d really wanna have you meet his family only after he knew it was gonna be serious with you two !

and he’d already know his family would love you so he wasn’t stressed (you definitely were, but he was just like “no!!! they’ll love you because they love me!!!”) and from then he’d really love for you to be close to his family

but oh boy meeting your family. he’d have a heart-attack

what if they didn’t like him?? what if they thought he was a bad influence?? he couldn’t handle that

(you’d go to meet them and you’d be calming him down because “you’re literally the cutest sweetest most charming boy i have ever met?? how could anyone ever hate you??”) and he’d still be super nervous but. two minutes into being through the door he has it! he’s got ur whole family just as whipped for him as you are by the time he leaves

he’s like the meme of ‘your mum asked me to ask if you wanted to come to dinner with us at your house tonight :)’

hyunsuk is also definitely the type to wanna get you guys a couple item!! and he’d try and find something really ugly because he’d think it was funny to see your reactions to the cringy couple shirts and hoodies

but then one day he’d come over n be like “hello i have done it again!!”

and ur like “oh no. why. what did you do. i’m too young to go to prison hyunsuk pls”

and he’s all “:) no silly we finally have a couple item”

and ur immediately like. “no. i won’t have it. take it back! no more micky and minnie mouse matching hoodies!! i won’t do it and you can’t make me!!!”

but he’s like “no i promise it’s a good one this time :( please”

so u allow him one chance…..just one….to prove himself…..

and boy! does he do it!

he gets out a cute lil box n he’s chanting like a lil kid when he gives it to you and he’s like, “open it open it open it!!”

and you do and :(( it’s this cute lil locket and you look up at him like :O

and he’s grinning so big and nodding for you to open it and when you do there’s your favourite picture of him in it and you’re !! so happy that you don’t know what to do with yourself

but then he’s like “wait! that isn’t even the best part!” and he shuffles about for a second and wham! he’s wearing a matching one

and ur like :O this is the cutest thing in the entire whole wide world

but ! he opens it up and he’s grinning at u n he looks like he knows something you don’t and there!! is a picture of you where you’re in a shirt of his and the lighting’s kinda bad because you’re kinda sat up in ur bed and ur grinning real big at something

and ur like “:/ hyunsuk that is the ugliest picture of me”

he would be. genuinely offended. he would pop off ! he would be gesturing around with his hands and rambling about how “that’s so dumb??? u look so happy?? and so cute??? and it’s my favourite picture of you ever???”

from that day obviously you wouldn’t take yours off because uhm that’s so cute

but like you just think he’ll wear his when it fits in with whatever the current days LookTM is

but………he wears it All the time…..(but he does take it off to sleep n shower because he’s scared to damage it!!!)

also i firmly believe hyunsuk isn’t the type to get jealous very easily anyway, but as i said earlier he wouldn’t find talking about it difficult

like,, if there was a situation where someone was being too touchy with you and it made him uncomfortable then he’d wait until later and then tell you kinda like, “hi idk what u think of this but it just made me kinda uncomfy :// can we talk abt it” and you would !! and you’d find something that worked for both of you !!

i mean hyunsuk really is like. that boyfriend

i know this is super long already so i’m gonna go into a quick fire bit;

he would completely and totally buy you chapsticks whenever he saw any !! like now he just buys two of each as a natural reaction to seeing them

leaves u notes if he has to leave early however they’re not like ‘ily see u later mwah’ they’re more like dumb jokes he thinks of or drawings of weird animal combinations he thinks of

totally accidentally steals the covers in the night if you guys move away from each so he buys you the cutest most fluffy blanket he can find as an apology

also!! his kisses would be the best ever?? he loves giving you lil cheek and forehead kisses 24/7

has to give you one (1) kiss every time you have to leave and one (1) kiss every time he sees you

but he gives you two (2) kisses every single time you compliment him!!!

overall! i think hyunsuk would be one of the most relaxed and easy-going ((and best but you didn’t hear that from me)) boyfriends anyone could ever have

thank you for coming to my ted-talk

#this was just something to get started if anyone sees it lol #ygtb scenarios #ygtb imagines #yg treasure box scenarios #yg treasure box imagines #ygtb reactions #yg treasure box reactions #:)) uwu thank you if you read it #writings//

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bboiseux · 6 years

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Cold Feet, Warm Arms (Beau/Jester)

Jester wakes up to the touch of cold feet, followed by warm arms pulling her close. It's Beauregard, sneaking into Jester's bed for the fourth time in a week, tears in her eyes. The one where Jester comforts Beau and teaches her a little bit about letting go.

Reading Time: abt 10 minutes

For the Mini-Critical Robin Writing Challenge! A big thanks to my co-authors: @ellainthetardis, @alittlebitover, @osroshallward, and @moonweave

Read the whole thing below the cut or read it on AO3!

Jester’s pleasant night’s sleep ended with the startled rush that came from the pressure of something ice cold against her legs. Her eyes shot open to darkness and the warm clutch of arms pulling her close and she started to struggle—

Beau’s voice whispered by Jester’s ear, “Sorry. It’s me. I just needed somebody.”

Jester’s body immediately calmed and she reached back to rub Beau’s thigh. “Your feet are really cold.”

“Shit. I didn’t think about that. Sorry.”

“It’s okay.”

Beau pulled her closer, one arm resting on Jester’s waist, the other working its way under her head. She rested her forehead on Jester’s shoulder. Jester reached back and soothed Beau’s hair with tiny strokes.

“Anything I can do?”

Beau squeezed her tighter. “You already are.”

“Okay.”

Jester tried to go to sleep, but she could hear the tears in Beau’s voice and feel the dampness on her shoulder. Beau never really cried—that awful full body shuddering—but her eyes definitely leaked.

Jester kneaded her lip. This was the fourth time in the last week that Beau had crawled into her bed in the middle of the night. She didn’t talk about it. She didn’t explain it. Jester would just wake up and find Beau there. Jester would cuddle her until she fell asleep and, when Jester woke up in the morning, Beau would be back in the other bed across the room.

During the day, it was like nothing had happened. Jester had tried to bring it up a few days ago and Beau had just shrugged.

Right now, with Beau clutching to Jester’s body, Jester’s shoulder increasingly damp, it didn’t feel like nothing. Beau's fingers pinched Jester’s skin as she shook at a dark memory or thought. Jester tried to move to look at Beau, but Beau was frozen, lost in her own mind, burying her head almost painfully into Jester’s shoulder. Breaking Jester’s heart little by little.

“Beau?”

A pause. Beau’s embrace grew tighter and her face pressed harder and wetter into Jester’s shoulder.

“Honey, you're hurting me,” Jester lied, voice quivering.

That got Beau's attention. The fierce grip she had on Jester loosened, but she didn’t move away. Jester shifted in Beau's grasp, getting comfortable for the long night ahead. She rested her left-hand on Beau’s right, the one over her stomach, and Beau let out a small, barely audible sigh.

A chill breeze wafted in through the cracked window, curtains billowing softly, tracing shadows on the ceiling.

“You know,” Jester started, “it's okay to be sad. No one is one hundred percent okay all the time.” Her free hand resumed stroking Beau's hair. Her nails softly scratched at Beau’s skull and Beau squirmed into the touch. “But I worry about you.”

Beau’s hand tensed against Jester’s tummy and she nuzzled deeper into Jester’s shoulder, hiding her face. Beau’s chest pressed tight against her back, Jester wasn't sure if the beating she felt in her skin was her own heart or Beau’s, trying to break away from this sorrow.

“I know,” Beau whispered, “I’m sorry.”

Jester watched the shadow of the curtains flutter across the wall. Her fingers still wove their way through Beau’s hair, stroking and soothing. Then, softly, barely a whisper, Jester began to sing:

“Oh, the cuckoo She’s a pretty bird She warbles as she flies.

She brings us glad tiding And tells us no lies She sucks on pretty flowers To make her voice clear And she never sings cuckoo Till the spring of the year”

It was a song her mama used to sing when Jester was small. The howling wind and thunder and pounding rain of springtime storms had seemed terribly frightening to young Jester. But after the skies cleared, her mama would throw open the windows to let in the breeze and birdsong and would sing this song. Always soft and sweet, she would beckon Jester to the window to feel the cool, fresh air and inhale the scent of soil and life. The storms were scary, violent even, but there was always something good after.

People told her she sang like her mama, but Jester knew that wasn’t true. Her mama’s voice was lush and full, filling the room with a warm tone that sank into the listener’s skin, soothing their minds (or exciting, if that was what she wanted). Jester knew she couldn’t sing like that.

But tonight, although Jester didn’t know if she sang for herself or Beau, the memories of her mama’s voice guided her and she echoed those sweet reassuring tones of the past into the night. Whether for her or for Beau, it calmed them both. The fluttering heartbeat slowed in Jester’s chest and Beau’s breathing grew even.

Jester smiled and rolled over (wiggling out of Beau’s arms) to plant a small kiss on the top of Beau’s head.

Eventually, Beau fell asleep, her breathing slow and even, a few slight snores escaping her, and Jester followed soon after.

Jester woke up expecting an empty bed and rolled over (as she usually did) to greet the day with an expansive yawn and a stretch. Which is how she nearly skewered Beau in the eye with a horn.

“Fuck!” Beau sat bolt upright and scrambled away. But their legs were entangled together in the sheets (and Beau didn’t try very hard), so she didn’t get very far. Beau rubbed her temple where Jester’s horn hit and flicked her eyes around the room. For a moment, Beau was confused, not quite realizing where she was, but then she remembered and her eyes went wide.

“Sorry—” Jester stifled a yawn and tried again. “Sorry, Beau.” She swatted Beau’s hand away and leaned in close to inspect the damages. Certain it was nothing more than a bruise, she gave the bump a little kiss.

Beau promptly groaned and flopped back, burying her face in the pillows.

“Are you feeling better?” asked Jester. She began to rub Beau’s back, trying to work warmth and healing into Beau’s body. She can feel the back muscles relax just a little.

There was a long pause and then a few muffled breaths.

“No.”

Jester waited another beat, but nothing more was forthcoming, so she eased back onto the pillow next to Beau and massaged the base of Beau’s neck with her thumb. Beau didn’t sigh, but Jester recognized the little grunt she gave as the quasi-angry equivalent.

“Want to talk about it?” Jester said it half into her own pillow. She watched Beau out of the corner of her eye, trying to time their breaths together as her thumb rubbed out soothing circles. Unconsciously, Jester’s toes ran down Beau’s ankle.

“No.”

Beau wriggled her legs away from Jester’s but didn’t make any move to leave. Jester flipped onto her back and crossed her arms (but wound her tail around Beau’s wrist just in case).

“Okay, but I am here though.”

Jester watched the sun finish rising out their window, Beau’s muffled breaths and restless legs providing a soundtrack. Finally, Beau rolled over.

“Fine. You win.” She swatted the tail from her wrist and nuzzled Jester. She glared menacingly up at the rafters.

Jester smiled and, rolling, touched her forehead to Beau’s. “What’s wrong?”

Even though Beau had just agreed to explain, she shook her head. But it didn’t seem like shying away—Beau’s arms uncrossed and came up to wrap around Jester’s shoulders. Jester gave her a light peck on the lips and then cooed as she stroked Beau’s hair. She had no words for Beau right now. Beau didn’t always find her words easily and Jester didn’t want to step on any words she might find. Instead, she made soft sounds and rocked back and forth, trying to coax Beau to let go of whatever hurt she held inside.

Beau leaned into the rocking and seemed to unfold with a long low groan, the sound rumbling in Jester’s ear. “Okay. Okay. I just—I don’t know.” She pulled Jester close and nuzzled her neck again. “It’s been a hell of a lot lately. You know?” Beau’s breath was hot and wet against Jester’s skin. “Fuck. We got in over our heads so bad, Jess.”

Jester nodded, her chin rolling on the top of Beau’s head.

“I thought I was dealing with it. Like, when hasn’t my life been a total disaster? When have things every gone the way I wanted?” She lapsed into silence again.

Jester chewed on her lower lip. She wanted to offer advice. She wanted to tell Beau it would be okay. But Beau sounded so bitter, so . . . sad. Maybe advice wasn’t the right thing. Maybe Beau just needed a hug. Maybe she just needed Jester to be there, like she was night after night. So Jester gave Beau a hug, so tight, so clinging. Jester imagined squeezing all the pain out of Beau, forcing it all away from her.

Jester whispered. “I’m sorry. I think I kind of know what you mean.”

She felt Beau’s breath stop and her body go tight and Jester’s own breath caught in her throat. Jester was afraid that talking had been a mistake.

But then Beau said, “You do?”

Jester relaxed. “Yeah. I mean, I didn’t want to leave my mama and I—I didn’t want to be kidnapped and—“

“Fuck.” Beau was suddenly squeezing Jester close, pinning her arms to her side. “Fuck. I didn’t think—”

“Beau!” Jester’s tail whipped around and jerked one of Beau’s arms up, releasing her. Jester scrambled to sitting. “I’m saying I understand. I’m not telling you not to feel bad.”

Beau shook off the tail and gestured wildly up at Jester. “I’m just saying I know I’ve got it good. Really, I made my mistakes, but they were mine. Like, nothing got forced on me.”

Jester leaned over and took Beau’s head in her hands. Her skin was soft and warm in her palms. She smiled down at her. “And I got a super cool childhood where my mom was awesome and bought me everything I want. So, guess we’re even!”

“That doesn’t make any—”

Jester clucked her tongue. “You can show me when you’re sad or down, Beau. That’s it isn’t it? You’re allowed to let me see that. You do not have to hide it in the nighttime.” She waved wildly. “See! It’s daytime and we’re talking about it and it’s okay!”

Beau lay very still on the bed, her face stuck in a look of confusion and distaste. Jester bit her lip, wondering if she had pushed too far.

“Fuck.” Beau’s face wore a scowl. “Fuck!”

Beau’s arm shot out and grabbed Jester. Jester’s eyes went wide as Beau tugged her down. But she relaxed as Beau’s arms embraced her and held her tight.

Beau’s voice was quiet next to Jester’s ear. “You’re right. Okay? I’ll try.”

Jester’s lips curled into a smile. “That’s all I ask.”

The sun was shining brightly through the window now—a warm white light that glowed across the wall. Jester ran her fingers through Beau’s hair and Beau gave a light kiss on Jester’s cheek.

Suddenly, Beau jumped back like she was remembering something and smacked Jester on the arm. “Shit! Jester, I didn’t know you could sing like that! You’ve been holding out on me!” Without a moment’s hesitation, she scrambled on top of Jester, straddling her. “No getting up until I get another song!”

Jester giggled. Despite the puffiness of her eyes, Beau was almost smiling. And, for Beau, that was as good as a giggle.

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