#SongsOfTheWeek2015

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

I would fall apart if you break my heart So just take my body and don’t stop the party~ 💙

I haven't been addicted to a Gaga song since "LoveGame". This song is my new obsession. That beat is INFECTIOUS.

Retrospective Note 2022: Just wait til Chromatica comes out and you end up addicted to the ENTIRETY of that record. Past Jason ain't READY.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Lady Gaga #Christina Aguilera

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

When the beating of your heart Echoes the beating of the drums There is a life about to start When tomorrow comes~ 💙

For prayers to work, you need to do more than speak, you need to take action. Go beyond the statuses and profile pictures. Take up your sword. Strap on your faith. Take it to the streets. Be the change you want to see in this world. For your community. For Paris. For the world.

Retrospective Note 2022: For context, this was in response to the 2015 bombing in Paris, France. There were many a Facebook post and profile picture change standing in solidarity with those suffering in Paris, but I could tell these attempts at sympathy were hollow. They think a prayer will wash away the pain in this world, but it takes more than that. God literally put us here on this Earth to serve, and not to sit back on our phones and type empty phrases of love and care while the rest of the world, hell even while the rest of their OWN communities, suffer. We could be that very answer to our own prayers, but we're too passive to even consider that we should take action of our own. Now obviously it's not a BAD thing to be posting words of solidarity and what not, but it's about the heart of it that matters. Are you just saying it to make YOU look good as you go back to being a hypocrite, or are you saying it, and then making a difference through your ACTIONS? Prayer should lead us to what we need to do or say. I'd be redundant if I repeated what I wrote above this retrospective note, so I'll just say that now's a good time to read that part again.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Les Misérables #PrayForParis

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

All these dreams one day will be mine They cross my mind...

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Cathy Dennis

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

My God, is that what I trusted in? That sin? That tomfoolery? Ugh What it is, is mental jewelry that I adorned myself with…

What a show. It turned into quite the intimate night of worship and song. Josh Garrels is not only a great artist, but a true performer. He was so humble toward his audience, and through the words of his songs, brought to us a life changing night. I’ll never forget his encore with “Farther Along”, as everyone stood up, raised their hands to the heavens, and just lifted up their burdens as we all worshiped in unison. I don’t know if he expected to impact us in that way, but I could tell he was in awe. It was a beautiful experience, one that we’ll never forget~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Josh Garrels

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

Like a heartbeat drives you mad In the stillness of remembering what you had And what you lost...

Retrospective Note 2022: Around this time in 2015, a dear friend of mine did a lovely cover of this wonderful 70s tune. It's still on YouTube amazingly (they now go by Ashe)! Why don't yall check it out? They have an incredible voice~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Fleetwood Mac

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

With me 言葉はいらない Give me 見つめ合えばいい Feel me すべてを預けて~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Jessica #Yuya Matsushita

[thebluejay1994]

~Final Song of the Week for 2015~

Where it was dark now there's light Where there was pain, now there's joy~ 💙

Welcoming the new year with a smile, 2015 was heavy for so many. There were countless wars, devastation of homes, & loss of loved ones, but 2016 is the year of love after all, and love can conquer all the pain. Let the rain wash away your tears, and shatter the walls for a new sun, for a new day has come! Happy new year dear friends! Have peace, keep the faith, and let love in.

Retrospective Note 2019: What a dark, yet enlightening year this was, and it wouldn’t be the last. 2015 in biblical numerology (as cool as it is, take it with a grain of salt) means perfect (20) rest (15). At a first glance, especially while I was in it, it was hard to understand why the word “rest” makes sense for all that we had gone through, but alas, it’s not that hard to decipher. My father was in constant pain, and now he’s home. He’s at rest. Me and my family suffered along side him, and suffered further more after his passing, but God blessed us with so many moments within that year that showered us with His peace and love, and so, we found rest. For me, I was in an insecure place in terms of what I wanted to do with my life, and also too, feeling immense pressure from the jobs I was working at.

I don’t think I mentioned this in any previous entries, but after leaving the Netflix job, a month later I learned that my church was needing someone to help clean the building. I had been praying for an opportunity to work at the church months prior, and so without hesitation, I took the job. At the time at least, it was perfect. I had the whole building to myself at night. I’d clean the building through the night, and had so much time to just focus on God. It was like a home away from home, and through all the stuff I dealt with at jobs prior, I finally felt peace at work. I never knew what that was like. I found rest. At work no less!

Rest. It was almost like God was telling me to stop, slow down, and focus on what was really important in life. To look inward, and rediscover my gifts. I rekindled my passions for art and anime. I finally joined a dance group, which was something I always wanted to do, for in the past, I was worried I’d be judged by friends and family alike. I found a job I loved doing, and most importantly, I grew closer to my family.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Celine Dion

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

May your days be merry and bright And may all your Christmases be white~ 🎄💙

AUUUUUUGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know if you know ;3

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #The Drifters

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

December clouds are now covering me December songs no longer I sing~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Collective Soul

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

This show is all kinds of beautiful... Lazers... Sexy Synths... Lazers... Patrick Nagel character designs... LAZERS~ 💙

Retrospective Note 2022: Well, the show only lasted for one season. From the get go, it aired right after South Park, which at that point, is hella late at night, which is a dead zone for any show (unless of course your show is on Adult Swim). It's too bad really. It had a great concept, a stunning look, a solid cast, and a banger soundtrack. The last few episodes weren't nearly as funny as the rest, but I loved it for what it was. Thanks past Jason for buying the series through iTunes. I'm gonna have to give this show another watch.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Night Club

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

I'll buy a ticket to anywhere I'm gonna be ready this time...

Retrospective Note 2022: I haven't felt this feeling in a very long time, the feeling that I need to run away in order to get a fresh start, but for a long time, pretty much throughout the entirety of the 2010s, I wanted to do just that. When I graduated in 2012, I was so sure I was gonna fly out to South Korea and study music there. No ties. Just a pure fresh start in a place I knew very little about. Of course, that didn't happen. I was barely making enough money to pay my own bills let alone a plane ticket abroad. A few years later around this time in 2015, I was feeling like running away to Boston. I had some friends up there, and I felt it would be PLENTY far away from everyone else. I was feeling quite guilty at the time. Guilty for quitting and leaving all my good friends behind while I tried to please my father by NOT doing what I loved. I was feeling ashamed about a lot of things, and I just wanted to disappear. Looking back, I'm glad I stayed, for I never would have been able to mend those relationships, and I never would be doing what I'm doing today. I'd probably be struggling even more, but who's to say really. God only knows. All I do know, is that I'm doing alright these days, and I'm so glad those old anxieties are long behind me. I'm stronger, more confident, and no longer letting bullshit that once held me back, hold me back any further.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #The Chicks

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

Dancing alone in the darkness At the edge of the night~ 💙

If you dig a good beat with that strong retro vibe, then this song is for you. Discovered this group through Comedy Central’s “Moonbeam City”, an adult animated comedy inspired by the art style of Patrick Nagel that came out a few weeks ago. Such an outrageous show, with some sweet, sexy, synthwavey goodness as provided by Night Club who not only made the show’s theme, but pretty much provided the whole soundtrack.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Night Club

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

I'm on my way, I'm on my way Home sweet home~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Mötley Crüe

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

We can write with ink and pen But we will sew with seeds instead...

Seryn remade one of our favorite tracks! Sounds a lot more fuller, but they cut out the instrumental break unfortunately. Regardless, it’s a beautiful song just the same~ 💙

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Seryn #Jessica

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

Why am I soft in the middle The rest of my life is so hard...

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #Paul Simon

[thebluejay1994]

~Song of the Week~

이제부터 잘 봐 내가 뭘 하는지~ 💙

So much happened this year at AnimeFest, but this was definitely the highlight. This moment signed sealed and delivered my return into my passions and my talents. This was the first time I had ever danced before, and it was exhilarating. I’ll never forget this day, and what it did for me as a person. Thanks so much Sarah for bringing us together! I already can’t wait for the years to come. And this year was such a blast! It was good seeing everyone at the con again after nearly 2-3 years :) Even made some new friends!!! For the billionth time… It’s good to be back.

Retrospective Note 2022: After my father died, I started to take on things I never felt confident doing when he was alive. It's awful when I say it that way, but it's true. I never felt like I could thrive with him around. Anything I attempted to do that was deemed wrong in the eyes of the church, that was it, although, not without a loud screaming match as I tried to defend myself and my dreams. I had always wanted to dance, but was scared of what my Dad would think. It was something I never even attempted, until 2015. That year, I decided to screw all of that, and when I saw an opportunity to join a K-Pop dance mob for an upcoming convention that year, I dropped all I was doing, and decided I was in. For the first time, I tasted confidence, and I believed in that confidence. When we danced, I felt strong, courageous, and fierce. It was a feeling unlike no other, and it would lead me down a path of creativity I had always desired to explore: self-expression without limits. It was all thanks to the wonderful individuals you see in the video above. Without them, I don't think I'd be even near where I am today. There are many in my life I can credit and thank, and these incredible people are definitely some of them.

#SongsOfTheWeek2015 #H1P3 #VIXX