#Sometimes its a train of thought interruptedby another thought and i freeze up and feel constricted cuz im tryingtto proces what to process

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starting to try and work out daily again and i think its just another form of depression i go into cuz last year i worked out consistently 5-6 days a week and i remember being saurrr depressed but it was a lightheaded depression where it was nice to lose count and zone out, certain sensation like a quarter sleeve shirt that was too lightweight would give me a weird overstim when i wasnt paying attention to how it was on my arms and id lose all ability to focus or think for a bit but it was nice tbh, it was a "oh im spacing out this is exctly what i want" so i think im just in a 24/7 depression all the time but it just changes to different types for whatever factors or reasons there are, if any at all

#I have other overstim? things still that are less fun idk what causes them really tho #I dont think overstim is the right word #Sometimes its a rush throukhout my body and its just a mini hell untilit passes and i almost wanna screm #Sometimes i do make a noise if im alone cuz it mahes it easier to deal with #Sometimes its a train of thought interruptedby another thought and i freeze up and feel constricted cuz im tryingtto proces what to process #Idk