#OBVIOUSLY morbid curiousity i think its one of the things i literally operate on. on a molecular level dats me

[gurorori]

T_T i hve smth rly shameful 2 admit urgh

#i don think its DAT bad but it like.. questionable #i think ppl wld think me a freak <- is one #but ummm.. twitter. ykno when dat one 'clips dat go hard' acc was everywhere but it was actually jus liveleak typa shit jus ppl dyin n #gettin murdered #well ill b honest i gawt rly drawn to dat one when it was still up #OBVIOUSLY morbid curiousity i think its one of the things i literally operate on. on a molecular level dats me #but uh theres definitely a lot of shame dat comes with i jus feel Bad bad increasingly bad #but i console myself with the fact im not clownin on it unlike ppl in the replies makin light of it #but yeah after dat one gawt taken down i was... kinda desperate to find accs like it. so i DID n followed like a dozen #now disturbin videos of gore n murder pop up on my timeline often n i jus don have the patience to go n unfollow em all #cuz i kno ill get drawn into scrollin thru em again #2 MAKE MYSELF CLEAR i don derive sum kinda pleasure or satisfaction outta it #i jus get fixated on it n cant stawp n i KEEP LOOKIN #it makes me rly distressed cuz.. well. real life things like dat do scare me lots n i start spiralin badly...