#Like I present myself very chill and unbothered but this is. Ahem. A Constructed Persona

[ranvwoop]

i am going to be so vulnerable in public for just a second. literally just for lack of therapy and for the love of psuedoanonymity except. it isn't really

#vwoop.noises #It sucks so bad being so volatile #Like I present myself very chill and unbothered but this is. Ahem. A Constructed Persona #Which is like. That's the point + the point of self improvement + I have some feelings on masking #Bc like. Idk. Some of the mental illness masking is just Uhhh trying to be a better person. That's not so bad #It's work and taxing but everything is. If I can't get storebought emotional regulation whatever I've whipped up here is generally passable #But man. It sucks so so so bad #I don't know when I'm allowed to feel bad #Well. I'm pretty okay at Feeling whatever but when I'm allowed to like... Make it other peoples proboems #One would say. I feel what I am feeling A Bit Too Much. All of the time #Just sucks! There's been some headway to at least get to the point where it is Just a me problem #And nobody else has gotta. Yknow. Be subject. but like. eeeeeugh #i am often in some sort of agony. Miseries even. Perhaps even torment and hardships #Eh. It's all just cause y'know. Illness. I don't know. I don't know how to conclude this. The point of the matter wasn't really addressed #I'd like to stop having anger issues this would probably help. It's not even anger issues proper cause it doesn't really. Present like that. #Well. Specifics would be [HORRIBLY STIGMATIZED DISORDER] but I have reservations leading with this because you know. We live in a society