#I've had it in my drafts for ages and idk how to finish it proper so hdjdjf good enough

[the-blazing-light]

"Son of fire and ruin, destinied for conquest, now claims to be a savior?"

Some thoughts about Arengar that have been cooking in my head for a while, and about the importance of blood for charr in general.

Blood and family is a big theme in Arengar's story, because even though charr parents don't participate in raising their children and we're told that, to quote Bangar, "charr don't have sons", it's shown time and time again that your lineage matters quite a lot and reflects the way you're treated and seen in your legion: an entire chapter of personal story for charr being entirely dedicated to who your father is/was, despite him not participating in your upbringing, you're still the one on whose shoulders it falls, in some cases, to respond to your father's wrongdoings or even kill your father if you choose that option during one of the possible story missions. Ryland's entire conflict is trying to split away from who his parents are, to do something worthwhile himself instead of just living in the shadow of his parents' big names and achievements. And in another case, you can find a statue of charr called Ferro the Butcher in the Black Citadel, father of one of Iron's tribunes, Bhuer Goreblade, who was obsessed with the 'tainted legacy' of his flame shaman grandsire, and after Bhuer was born has volounteered to answer for the crimes of his ancestor so that Bhuer doesn't have to face the same predjudice as him. So while charr don't raise their children, lineage matters a lot to them, even going as far as generations back.

And Arengar's lineage is nothing to scoff at. Grandcub of the Blood Legion imperator, son of a respected Blood warrior who'd fought viciously and became known for her ferocity during the siege of Ebonhawke, he's had a lot to live up to since the day he was born.

He was born to become a model soldier of his legion, heavy expectations of his blood always weighing down on his shoulders. His lineage is that of duality, as while his mother's side of the family are respected, well-known Blood warriors, his father is an ex-Flame shaman, who caused quite a stir when Maja, Arengar's mother, took him into her warband, placing the trust into a shaman who'd turned his back on Flame Legion and claimed to want vengeance on his former comrades. That trust seemed to pay off, as Scorchface, a nickname he'd gotten due to the burn scarring on his head along with black markings on his muzzle, became a loyal and invaluable part of her warband and later on, her lover, resulting in Arengar being born.

So since his birth Arengar had to contend with two very conflicting legacies: that of a renowned, respected warrior, pride of her Legion and her father, the Imperator, and that of a flame shaman seen as dangerous even after proving time and time again his newfound loyalty to Maja, her warband and her legion. Notably though, his loyalties were specifically to her, not to the Blood legion. To the warband and its leader who took him in and trusted him while the rest of the legion saw him as a danger to them and a tratior.

Despite that, Arengar held a lot of pride in his blood, it is reflected even in Arengar's fighting style: being a guardian he combines the martial prowess of a warrior while wielding searing flame, his father's shaman legacy. And even despite his father's reputation, Arengar was still seen as a progidal son, someone with a lot ahead of him, someone destinied to reach great heights within Blood Legion, and his performance in the Fahrar and eagerness to become the best soldier his legion has ever seen has only cemented that. A born conqueror, one to bring glory to the Blood Legion and he intended to do just so.

That is, until an accident and a series of bad decisions led to his warband dying, Arengar being left a sole survivor, a gladium. Still young at the time, filled with ambitions that have been shattered before his eyes and dealing with the pain of losing his warband, becoming a gladium, returning to his legion as a disgraced sole survivor felt like a fate worse than death. Scared, pained and still young, Arengar couldn't find it in him to go back to his legion and face the tribunal, the progidal son of Blood Legion now being a member of the lowest caste, a gladium, the disgraced sole survivor of his warband.

#gw2 #guild wars 2 #it's unfinished but eh fuckit #I've had it in my drafts for ages and idk how to finish it proper so hdjdjf good enough #charr #Arengar Hopebringer

[hawkinshighdropout]

I'd like to submit my friend application please 💚

Hi! I'm Toni and I'm 31, old I know 😂

I'm a stay at home mum to my beautiful little man, he's autistic so it can be hard sometimes as he's non verbal and it doesn't help that I have literally no mum friends to talk to or meet up with. It can feel pretty lonely sometimes.

I've recently (since s4) came back to tumblr but I used to LIVE here back in my Shadowhunter days (books, TV and film) and before that in my very multi fandom teen days!

I kind of forgot what it was like to have a hyperfixation until Eddie appeared on my screen. I've been so tied up in being a mum and trying to find myself again that I've realised I've not had a proper hyperfixation in such a long time! I have had mini ones but not to this level in years 😂

Hmm a little more about me. I love reading but tend to either read like 8 books in a month or none for 3 years. I watch a LOT of TV, a few of my favourites are ST (obviously), The Walking Dead, Gilmore Girls and Buffy. Moviewise I'm into a lot of different types, my main favourites are LOTR/Hobbit, Labyrinth, Soldier's Girl (highly recommend but it will break your heart and not mend it) and Muppet's Christmas Carol.

I also write. I'm finally getting back into writing. I used to write a lot but in recent years it's been a struggle. I currently have an ongoing Eddie x Reader series, plus a lot of plot bunnies waiting to be written 😂 and also a novel I'm hoping to write one day!

Okay I've rambled a lot now. That's one last thing to know about me. I'm a rambler. Or I don't reply for literally ages. There's no real in-between 😂

Hope you're having a lovely day 🥰💚😇

Consider your application accepted just based on how lovely you are off the bat! <3

Hi, Toni! You’re not even that old, hush yourself! 😊

Congrats on your lil boy, I wish you all the luck in raising him. <3 Hopefully you find the love and support that you are needing ‘cause you deserve it, you’re doing an amazing job, just in case no one had told you that already today!! You got a friend in me, even if I’m not a parent, I can still be a pal!

OH MY GOD I LOVE SHADOWHUNTERS, YES!!! I’ve literally been thinking about finishing off the book series cause I never finished it cause I got hooked on the show instead but then it got cancelled so I was butthurt and gave up ahhaha. Watch me be 26 and restart my love for this franchise all cause of you!

Honestly same, Eddie has us all in a chokehold and idk how he’s doing it ??

You’re a whole mood tbh, yes. I feel like that’s how most readers are, super into it, ghosting books for years, super into it, taking a long ass break. There’s always that one book that hooks you back in tho, I wonder what it’ll be for you! Gilmore Girls is a fucking vibe and I love that show, ugh, it’s such a comfort show. Those are all hella solid movie choices, I think we will get on real well!

I need to checkout your series and give it a read, can’t be ignoring the wonderful work of my happy little sheep now can I?! I’ll add it to my TBR <3 Tell me about it haha, I have like 6 stories in my drafts waiting to post and then another like 13 requests to get to, lots of plot bunnies sitting about :D You wanna write a novel?! About what?! :D

I love ramblers. I’m a quiet person irl so it gives me a chance to just sit and listen to people, it’s a good balance 😊 I hope you are having a fabulous day, my love. You deserve the best things in life and the universe shall bring them to you!

Join our gang! <3

#sweetpeapod #answered

[wishesunderthestars]

I don’t know if you’re gonna answer this, but I have a few questions in regards of writing.

I always read a lot but I never had the ambition of writing anything. However, before I even knew it I already had a plot figured out (I won’t say I have planned every detail but 90% of the storyline is ready) and it’s been YEARS since I realized I had a whole universe sitting in a corner of my brain but I just can’t write. I’ve tried multiple times, either the characters feelings are not shown in a proper way or the description of the scene is horrible. I wonder if I’m being too perfectionist, it’s just that it doesn’t happen fluidly as I feel it should. I even have a Pinterest for inspiration, did not help (I still add a lot of pins though hahaha). And on top of everything, I’m in university now and working a part time job so time is everything I don’t have. 

I know you’re also a very busy person, and I cannot imagine how you still manage to write cause as you can see I could never lol. And I know that every writer has their own method as well, but do you think I should figure every single detail out, decide what will happen in each chapter and then try to write? Or try again with less self criticism idk haha. Also, how do you balance the description of things like places, clothes, characters and their feelings? Do you think (as a reader and a writer) that the place should always be descripted or there are times that are not important?

(I forgot half of the questions I had while I made this rant and will not wait until I remember cause I'm anxious but I just want to let you know that Eunoia is a masterpiece and I love every single line that you wrote)

Okay, I remembered to mention that it revolves around a lot of grief and other intense feelings that I swear I can feel myself but have no idea how to even begin to put in words without being repetitive, incredibly boring and unconvincing.

The second part of this question wasn't sent on anon but I'm pretty sure that it's from the same person. Please correct me if I'm wrong.

Now, to answer your questions. What I think you're suffering from is a bad case of perfectionism and I can tell because I suffer from it too. Daily. It significantly slows down my progress and I haven't figured out how to combat it yet. I would suggest writing a very rough draft at first just telling the story to yourself. Write all the scenes you want to write, everything you have pictured, and not get too critical about it. Just get the story out. When you finish it you can see what worked and what didn't. Rereading it you might find that some parts are actually really good and don't need much editing. Personally, I write one chapter at a time because it would take ages to finish the story but that also depends on if you're writing fanfiction or a book you want to publish.

And I don't think it's necessary have every detail figured out when writing, some things just come naturally when writing. But again, that depends on you and what works best for you. For me, I have a general outline and before I write each chapter, I list the scenes that I want to include. An example from Chapter 21 of Eunoia is:

Mc and Namjoon discuss what they mean to each other and what they want from each other. Also the boy her mother wants to set her up with. She turns down the invitation.

Taylor shows up to congratulate her with cake and the mc panics a little. She talks to Taylor and she is understanding

Jimin makes a flower crown and places it on Taehyung's head.

etc

This is taken directly from my notes and that's usually the level of detail I include when I'm outlining each chapter. And often I add new scenes when I'm writing or change the plan for some of them or move them around.

Balancing descriptions is hard and I don't think it's something I've mastered. Each writer is unique in how much description they add. There are best seller books that the descriptions are minimal and then there is J.R.R. Tolkien who could write ten pages about a rock.

Describing the place isn't always necessary in the sense that you don't need to dedicate a whole paragraph to it. Sometimes just referencing where they are is enough, like the park or a clothing store. The reader can imagine what that looks like. Also, if you have described that place before you don't need to describe it again. But describing places can set the atmosphere and the tone of the scene. You can sprinkle in single lines of description throughout the scene.

Again, just write the words as they come and you can edit them later. You don't have to write long paragraphs about the characters' feelings. And it's okay to repeat some things a couple of times. Just take a look at how repetitive some things in Eunoia are.

#asks

[frogsandfries]

Alright

I had to pee and I didn't want to go at the gas station. Because when you use the convenience store toilet, it's just good manners to buy something. But also because gas station bathrooms. Just. On principal, y'know?

We finally got the large tank hooked up to the heater and got it working, though. So I'm sleeping in my home tonight! The first night I've spent in my van in ages and ages. Then tomorrow, supposedly, but I'm not holding my breath anymore, my dad is bringing a drill and batteries so I can build the frame, finally. Still. Not holding my breath. Will probably have to do it by hand. Gave up on NaNoWriMo, but decided to try to keep building my main novel more regularly, until I have all the draft material I need. But also want to work on my last privacy curtain? If I finish this project this weekend, even if I have to put aside the lumber for the futon and stairs, I would at least like to put up my privacy curtain. Some kind of UV protection for fabric would be great. All the better if it seals on the glitter. I can't help but get really amped about the thought of having my bedding off the floor. No more shoe filth on my bedding. No more floor junk on my bedding. No more crawling over my bedding when I need something out of the van. I'll need some heavier curtains, perhaps at least until I.....idk.... maybe I'll just stick with heavier curtains and not get fancy. Pretty much the whole shell is windows. Oh wait, is that sealant UV protective? I could spray the curtains with that.....

There is no fucking way in hell I'm letting this weekend pass me by without my dad removing those things from my van. It's three whole days of time off of work. There are zero acceptable excuses. If he removes the roof, the blower motor, and the tower, the rest is all but taken care of. It's fucked up that he gets to run his project his way AND run my project his way.....

If I have my loft, I can write while I'm trying to sleep. If I have my desk, I can write at my desk. If I have a kitchen, I can start to cook for myself, and actually have the energy to write and sculpt and work on my van. Of course, by the time I have a semi-proper kitchen, the van will be just about complete.

Just how to use the kitchen space while repelling pests....... I don't know what the hell it is, but each of my dad's vehicles have rodents, and so, as I've mentioned, does my van. Apart from getting an actual cat (would like, not a good time), I guess I could crush rodent poison into pungent food and hide it in hidden crannies.....?? I've heard Irish Spring soap works, but it's just such a weird solution?? I mean, I don't mind the way it smells, so even if I, like, chopped up a bar, maybe put it in a cheap pepper mill and ground a pentagram of it around food and left the food in the open, I could find out, and if it doesn't work, no loss, I use the rest of the bar the way it was intended. I can do my best to seal up all the nooks and cracks in my van, to insulate every last inch of space, but there's always the front end of the van, which is trickier to protect. But I guess that could be my first line of defense against unwelcome guests; under the hood and in those closed in spaces that are difficult to access, would be a good place for poisoned food, at least till I can get a cat.

Idk I'm probably talking crazy; I've been up for like....... seventeen hours??

I'll try to work on..... something....... wait for my dad to get up and take me to my van. I'm gonna sleep for a million years.