#I'm so far behind and struggling bc of my stupid fucking agonies. like let it be bc im crazy

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the problem with trying to overcome intense pain and function is my brain KNOWS it won't be okay too. like last time I went to this lecture the pain was so blinding I had to leave early and I couldn't process a thing. so why when I'm in that amount of pain now would it be different? it's like that except always over time forever.

#someone needs to trick my brain into believing functioning (leaving hiding under covers) wont cause agony (a lie) #it hurts so so much and ive already taken ibuprofen #istg the tms is making this worse fuck #rn i just need to prioritise my exam ig thats the most make it break it #I'm so far behind and struggling bc of my stupid fucking agonies. like let it be bc im crazy #im so good at being behind and getting caught up due to mental anguish #why must i have BOTH. leave me alone #though they said the tms can make it better but it makes it worse first so I'll give it another week ig 🤡🤡 #delete #vent