#I'm getting fatter and the pure joy that is giving me is. indescribable. i want to like. happy cry over this

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i love that my body is changing so much it's making me so so so fucking happy

#changing in multiple ways #from T and from meds that regulate my health better and from choices I've finally gone through with #my hair is cut the way i like it now because i do it myself and i don't hate it when i look at it anymore #I'm getting (light) facial hair and it's making me look older- making me look MY AGE for once #I'm getting fatter and the pure joy that is giving me is. indescribable. i want to like. happy cry over this #I've gotten one of the cosmetic/quality of life surgeries i wanted partially done (removing nails permanently. i legit hate having them) #i don't think I'll ever necessarily LOVE my body. but being able to have some control over it is making me so joyful #it's giving me the same feeling as finally collecting all the items i wanted to decorate my camp with in pocket camp #took me 4 damn years but HOLY SHIT it looks and feels so much better now and it makes me so happy