#I watched the afhf doc last night and the whole thing is just him being SO STRESSED about doing good enough its actually painful to watch

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It’s too bad that some people have to ruin a nice thing. Louis is going to places that really don’t get a lot of big concerts. He’s going out of his way to reach these places and probably isn’t making a whole lot of money, and in return some people are being so gross. We all know that there are the stalker crew that follow the tour and fight local fans to get to the barricades, so odds are high they’re part of the problem we’re seeing now. I wouldn’t blame him if for the next leg there is no more barricade run.

While I'm aware that most people aren't as chronically online and tracking Louis' every mood and movement as I am, at this point even a mild engagement with the fandom in the runup to your show- which I feel like its safe to assume anyone putting in the time to get on barricade has- is enough to let you know that at this time he is not enjoying people tugging at his clothes and it is not the moment! I think there are the privileged foreign fans following him around who carry that sense of privilege into their actions on barricade, I think there are probably local fans who are just wildly excited about their one show and getting a little crazed in the moment (or just being jerks) as well- personally I wish that instead of having it be an all or nothing thing that Louis would just do it when he's feeling it and having fun and it feels fun and silly to let people tug at him, and simply take the day off when he is, for example, sick and struggling through a lot of back to back shows, the same as he lets the songs that are harder at certain times be taken off the set list as needed and only does the stage door fan time when he feels up for it

#tbh I think part of the problem is that he is still doing barricade partially to distract from the fact that he's struggling #or because he feels guilty for the shows not being 100% #I watched the afhf doc last night and the whole thing is just him being SO STRESSED about doing good enough its actually painful to watch #and I just kept thinking about how stressed he must be right now about his perceived failure to give 110% at every show #when most people won't have noticed a damn thing!! as for example the people on barricade #who are just fully oblivious #I bet he's scared too about losing vocal capability long term😭I wish I could send him all the hugs (from SOMEONE ELSE not me that's scary) #blah blah blah