#I really wanna get my driver‘s license but I’m holding off until I have 100% confirmation that I can stay here

[phoenix-rising-starbird-one]

German punctuality means everyone is on time except the fucking train. Except that one time you have to catch the train and it leaves right in front of your eyes. Two minutes early! Fucking gotta love this place.

#there are times I hate it here #I really wanna get my driver‘s license but I’m holding off until I have 100% confirmation that I can stay here #cause I’m not paying €2000 when honestly I have my American license and had that one since 2008 #with my renewal expiring in 2030 #I’m also still not sure if I want to stay here #the benefits don’t always outweigh the bureaucratic hell this country is #and I’m simply not making any friends here #I’m really not sure if coming here was a mistake #I know I know I gotta give it time #but honestly #I can part with everything I have and live with very little and maybe I should’ve done that #maybe I should’ve tossed everything and start somewhere where no one knows me #I don’t know #I just know I feel more lost here than back in Hawaii #and maybe that makes me ungrateful #to what I have but I am very VERY miserable here and I know it’s not just an attitude issue or me #I feel lost and alone and just don’t care for anything here other than my sister.