#I mean my salary is essentially unlivable which I knew but also like well damn

[crimsonblackrose]

I looked at how much according to experts I can spend on housing a month and omg I can afford nothing with my current job. 😂 Like I knew I couldn’t, but just how little I can actually afford at this job is pathetic.

#mumblings about work #mumblings #I've known that getting a job that is full time and pays well is highly important #but damn the actual peanuts I'm paid is pretty bad once you chop out rent #my aunt and uncle are going to charge me less than the expert amount but it's still more than I expected #and since my health insurance i foot the bill for myself is so expensive #that's essentially half my pay check just for rent to my aunt and uncle and my health insurance this year #which really that shouldn't be right...I mean it's a little less than half but by like a razors edge that #I'm just looking at my dream of moving downtown with a little sad face and looking at jobs with a someone please pay me a lot more money #I mean my salary is essentially unlivable which I knew but also like well damn #I could ask for a raise but that feels dangerous atm because we literally just laid off like 13% of the company #and I don't want to have no job and then now suddenly I'm eating into my saved downpayment #adulting sucks y'all I just want roots #I also planned next month to go downtown and explore #and then a friend I haven't seen in like 5 years (omg) was like hey road trip? #so now she's coming to visit later in the month and we're going to stay downtown so I can explore neighborhoods again #and I'm like well huh what do I want to do for my birthday then? #because the idea of paying for places downtown twice in one month does not sound like fun #Still want to go downtown and see people #but I've got to think about it a little more #My aunt asked me what I wanted to do and I'm like uhhhhh #because she asked if I wanted to go to the place I was supposed to go with dad and I'm like #well first off they're closed till spring and second off how expensive is this going to be? #Like I don't think she realizes that I was starting to feel a little stable and then throwing rent at me (which is a fair thing to do) #is just like whelp now I've got to decide what's worth doing financially and what's not #and I'm going to lean towards doing nothing to save money #which is my go to #I had planned to go visit friends this year but since I want to move out asap it's kind of let's find a new job and save up so I can move #which means not going to hawaii or seattle or new york #and frowning at the idea of going downtown even