#I love sparring so fucking much it was my favorite part of taekwondo

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Look at you, under me. My knees on either side of your waist, leaning over you while I keep my hands firm on your shoulders. Your eyes is real big like a little deer, haha, you know I can feel your heartbeat right?

You look so goddamn handsome right now. Moonlight on golden brown skin, the slight shine along the gradient of your lips, the way your eyes are pulling me in; somehow darker than the already dark room. You look in the mirror lately? Your jawline is changing, it's squaring itself out. Your shoulders lookin different too. You're like a flower or some shit, blossoming into a man at my hands.

Tell me, You wanna get hurt?

Nah—Hey!—Dont you try that shit again or I'll pin you forreal. Lay there and relax. I aint goin nowhere and neither are you. yet.

Think about it. You, me, shorts, MMA gloves, gym mats. You've noticed by now, yeah? You're a little stronger than you were before I started workin' on you. I wanna test it, I wanna beat the hell out of you, and you can do the same to me. I want to hurt you. You should see how much more a man can take than the imposter who was in your place before. I wanna see that realization in your eyes when you realize how much easier it is to hit me just a little harder. I wanna see how much sweatier you can get now. I wanna hear all them new noises you can make in your new voice. Don't you wanna see it too? the evidence of your actualization? You look all calmed down, I'll ask you again;

You wanna get hurt, little man?

#force masc #forced masculinization #autoandrophilia #autoandrophile #black ftm #black masculinity #ftm nsft #mlm ftm #MDS Originals #I love sparring so fucking much it was my favorite part of taekwondo #when i can afford it i wanna take BJJ and MMA classes #also lmfao when i typed relax i just kept thinkin of that one video thats like this dude with his cat and hes like #'mothafucka relax. Relaax. OUUUUUUUUUUU' #its so fuckign funny #he makes that noise cause his cat bites the shit outta him its so fucking good

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Surveything

Ever felt like you were putting your life in danger? I suppose.  I mean, if you think about it, just getting out of bed can be putting your life in danger.  So could staying in it.  You can die from damn near anything, under the right circumstances.  You just have to push past that. What do you like with your eggs? There are lots of great things you can pair with eggs.  If they’re fried, I like apple-sausage with them, or smoked salmon (that one might be my favorite).  If you’re making a quiche or doing a scramble, there are five million good things you can throw into it.  I like chicken and spinach, or ham and mushroom and onions best (either way with a little basil and rosemary mixed in).  What remedy do you partake when experiencing the common cold? Orange juice, rest, green tea, and lots of kleenex.  Spicy foods also help. Would you ever spend a weekend in the mountains in a log cabin? I would love that.  (But preferably when it’s relatively warm.  I dun wanna be buried in snow.) Have you ever taken Martial arts? Would you? I took Taekwondo for a while, until my back fucked up, and my Dad, who was paying for the lessons, lost his job.  It was incredibly fun, but I was bothered by the fact that they would never let us spar.  I think I’d try a different martial art if I ever got back into it.

Is there something you’re anxious about? Ennh, it’s tax time, which means baby’s first property taxes.  I can manage, I just don’t like getting that much out of my savings. What is the longest you’ve gone without sleep? A couple days.  I like sleep too much to miss very much, if I can help it. What is the longest you’ve been on the phone? I feel like anything more than a half hour is too long.   Do you care about calories? A little.  I’m working on getting into better shape, and part of that does include losing a little weight.  So, I’ve got an upper limit I try to stay below.

Do you know someone with a really annoying laugh? No one comes to mind. What band do you mostly always listen to no matter what mood? I don’t really have a single go-to band.   Have you ever been to Indianapolis? I’ve got friends who live there, and I visit them every couple weeks or so.. Have you gone to college/uni? What is/was your major? Yes, but I didn’t finish.  English was my major. What color is your best friend’s hair? Brown with purple-y bits. How often do you drink alcohol? Lately, once or twice a week.  Other times, I’ve gone on kicks where I’d have a glass of wine every day.  Other times, I’ve gone a month or more without. Have you ever done something really cool but no one was around to see it? Frequently.   Where were you going the last time you were a passenger in a car? Back from Chicago. Have you ever dated someone who had a kid from a previous relationship? I’ve been on a date with a person who had kids.  But I have never dated anyone with kids seriously. What was the last event that was a turning point in your life? Probably getting the house. What’s your favorite setting in nature? (mountains, beach, desert, etc…) Anyplace that’s green and has water, I tend to be pretty happy in.  There’s a state park not too far away that has this waterfall, and a rocky, forested canyon, and you can spend a whole afternoon following the water and climbing around on big, mossy rocks and filling your pockets with pretty, little ones and chasing iridescent dragon flies.  It’s like a place out of a fairy tale.  I think, out of the places I’ve been, it’s probably my favorite.  I’ve really enjoyed the mountains and the seaside, too, though. What hair color is most common in your family? Dark brown, mostly.  Though, on Mom’s side you can either get smol brunette pixies or tall, Nordic blonds.   List all the different things you’ve had to drink in the past day. Water, dandelion tea, green tea. Would you rather spend a day at an amusement park, or kayaking on a lake? I’ve never been in a kayak, before, and it’s been years since I went to an amusement park, so I mean.... I think I’d have to flip a coin to decide. Are you prone to having unhealthy and drama-filled relationships? No, I can’t stand those. For how long has your favorite band been your favorite? I don’t really have a favorite. Do you have any photos on your refrigerator? What are they of? There’s a picture of my sister which is also a magnet, and there are a handful of post cards.  One’s the clock tower/hotel where my best friend had her wedding.  Then there’s a statue of the Three Graces, from the grounds of the IMA, and an old book written in Tibettan, with marigolds all around it.  The rest is just art, or interesting/pretty cards people have sent me. What was the last thing you baked in the oven? Fish in garlic butter with dill. Do you get offended easily? *makes vague, wobbly motion with hand* What color are the pillows on your couch? White and dark gray. When was the last time you wiped down the mirror in your bathroom? Probably about a month. Do you have a good relationship with your dad? Good-ish?  We get along better than I do with my Mom, anyway.  He’s a little too dedicated to slow suicide by whiskey for us to be really close... Are you concerned about what Facebook does with your personal information? Most of the information I have on there isn’t altogether accurate, so not too worried.   Have you ever gone more than 5 years without going to the dentist? Yup. Do you have a hard time sleeping when you’re away from home? No, I think I may actually sleep a little better. What do you think about self-driving cars? I don’t altogether know if I’d trust one, at least not at this point in time.  There are too many other crazy drivers, out there, and there are probably other bugs that still need to be worked out. Do you know anyone who got engaged while still in high school? None that went through with it.

Are you friendly to retail employees? I try to be polite and pleasant, yeah.  I’ve worked in customer service too long, myself, to ever wanna be one of those customers. Do you know anyone who litters? Probably. Do you think your neighbors have any complaints about living near you? Hard to say.  I don’t really talk to them. What was the last kind of soup you ate? Clam chowder. Where do you usually buy groceries from? Aldi, Kroger, JayC, Volde-Mart.

#survey #you can play too