#I feel like I could've done more but I shortened it. Been playing these 2 for like.... 5 years? And they're complicated lol

[valiant-au-save-slot-a]

✂️ - What kind of thing would have your OC cut someone out of their life? How likely are they to let someone back in?

🎭 - Does your OC show different sides of themselves to different people?

🩺 - Does your OC accept help easily? Are they willing to admit when they need help?

💡 - How does your OC enact plans? Do they plan down to the smallest details, or do the wing it?

🌋 - What’s your OCs temper like? Are they a slow boil, or an instant explosion? (For both uwu)

OwO Oh boysie oh boysie! Gonna put it under a cut cuz it's gonna be l o n g

✂️

Crowley: It honestly takes a lot for him to cut someone out of his life. Even if you betray his trust and break past his established boundaries, he's pretty easily forgiving (though he might stew on it for a bit).

Mack: Similarly to Crowley, betrayal is one of the things that will make him come for your throat. But unlike his partner, Mack's much more, uh, cut and dry about how he shows his displeasure. Insubordination is a surefire way to find yourself running from an axe wielding maniac in the middle of the fields.

🎭

Crowley: Oh absolutely! This was going to be longer but I wanna leave SOME mystery here 🙄 He's got a very prevalent Public Personality that he puts on during his on the clock hero work. Very friendly, smiley, prepared and happy to help anyone and everyone in need of his assistance. He's a bit #quirky, and people usually chalk his antics up to something being deeply wrong with him but his nuttiness is not something to be bothered about. He's just... Like That™️. But despite the overall goofiness and dumbing down of his capabilities that he puts on, those closer to him will know that he's rather smart and thoughtful. Genuinely a kind-hearted guy despite his social awkwardness and somewhat lack of self-awareness. He treats his significant others well and goes out of his way to make sure that they know he cares about them deeply (comes off a bit obsessive sometimes!). He's very sweet on the few people he's let into his life like that. It used to be a bigger problem, but he's always got HUGE walls up when it comes to sharing personal information. He was taught that anything that can show weakness in him can and will be exploited in order to bring his downfall. Deep down, he's paranoid, extremely self-critical, and kinda tortured? Dude's got some issues, but thanks to a lot of shoving for it (from his Rachael especially), he's finally going to therapy to work through the horrors he's witnessed and been a victim of in life. BASICALLY he's several layers of hot mess and THIS is the short version of it!

Mack: THIS ONE WILL BE SHORTER! Mack is overall pretty even keel looking. Kinda monotone, often found with his eyes half-lidded and not a thought between those pretty brown eyes. But he's the biggest bad in the kingdom that he and Crowley call home, and it's not a surprise why. He's a silver-tongued devil, cold and intimidating. A twisted and angry fella who lives for the philosophy of literally eating the rich. He seems to take great pleasure in the suffering of those he deems worthy of his judgement. Buuuuut... Catch him doing farm work and you wouldn't think he's the same guy. Yeah, his empire literally rests beneath his farm and all the surrounding land is owned by him, but he seems to enjoy the simplicity of it all. Friends and family would know him for being a bit hard to read (sociopathic traits n' all), but he shows that he's more humble than the villain title would let on. He's typically a man of few words, lest you get him in a rant about his philosophies on the state of the world or something... Despite having a low ability to emphasize with people, he does show that he cares about the people closest to him and will not hesitate to end someone if they even look at them wrong. Also he's a momma's boy which is great cuz he has 2 of 'em ;)

🩺

Crowley: Absolutely not. He's pretty headstrong about the "I'm the only one capable enough to help myself" kinda thing. It's taken nearly a decade of him working as a pro hero to even allow apprentices and leaning a bit on his coworkers. It doesn't come naturally for him since he's been raised and trained to be extremely independent. It often plays to his downfall.

Mack: He's got a whole empire of evildoers under his chain of command. The man's got no problem divvying up and delegating things he can't do himself to those more capable. If you impress him too, he won't be shy about telling you either.

💡

Crowley: He is CONSTANTLY making plans. In fact, he has several journals in his home dedicated to jotting down any and every worst case scenario he may encounter in his work and daily life. Is that healthy? Probably not. Though when his plans don't work out exactly as they should, he's pretty good about adapting and overcoming (but would have preferred things to be a bit more controlled despite the chaotic nature of his whole personality). Sometimes you just gotta say "FUCK IT, NEW PLAN" and make it up as you go!

Mack: Mack has to have his plans laid out pretty clearly in order to get anything done properly for his work. He runs a pretty tight ship, but he himself is fine with winging things. Doesn't matter how it gets done, just get it done.

🌋

Crowley: It honestly depends on the day for Crowley! If it comes out loud and explosive, that's actually the better of the options. It's when he simmers and drops all the goofiness of his general facade and lets you know he's angry... That's when you're in trouble. Also it's pretty easy to see when he's angry even if he's just got a customer service smile on. Fella's gold eyes get rings in them with shifts in his mood and when those bad boys are filled with 'em, you're getting on his nerves.

Mack: Mack's anger is fucking ICY. He doesn't blow up often at all, but he's very good at letting you know when he's displeased. If he looks at you and quietly tells you to run, then you better pray that your heels can kick up enough dust to let you get away with your life.

#crowley || [bird brain] #mack || [the butcher] #ask meme #WOWWIE A LOT! #I feel like I could've done more but I shortened it. Been playing these 2 for like.... 5 years? And they're complicated lol #Oh and for clarification #Crowley is the hero of the kingdom while Mack is the villain and they're 100% married lmfao

[mdhwrites]

I know you've been asked this before, but still, now since toh has ended would you consider giving Arcane a chance? Not right away but maybe when feel like it. 👀

I promise it's not a bad show, I watched it after starting toh to pass the time. It's only 1 season for now and it has just 9 episodes, but these episodes are so packed! The world building is easy to grasp, the characters do interact, there's development, it has a diverse female cast and fighting scenes. There's at least 3 conflicts that interconnect at the end.

The thing about it that amazes me is that it does so much in such a little short time, 9 episodes only. I often compare it toh and wonder about how much toh could've done if they knew how to plan beforehand, because toh had all the time in the world in comparison. (I'm mentioning this because I'm also bitter about the shortening thing being thrown around to excuse the bad writing).

So I will 100% admit that Arcane sounds entirely up my alley. It's in a universe that has had literally over a decade to flesh out its lore and ideas, characters they've been working with for at least half the games life cycle, it has rave reviews, lesbians, the animation is GORGEOUS, I've actually heard surprisingly little analyzing the plot and that could be fun for me. I... just don't know why I haven't watched it. And it's not like I'm so busy as to not watch shows. I watch WAY too much Youtube and streams. That stuff is mostly mindless and pure entertainment and I can't make blogs or stories about it. But that might also be exactly why I don't watch much scripted content. See, I watch a lot of stuff while I'm on walks to have some noise going, or music while I think about writing ideas, or while I'm playing a game or the like. It's distraction. It's to turn off the part of my brain that's too wound up and emotional and analytical. Also a lot of media has the unfortunate problem of me going "What can I be inspired by this for?" Which if I was going full blast would be great! At 8k words a day, having things to distract me or keep my motor running would be almost necessary. And that's technically a conservative statement as when I first joined TOH, I did 200k words in 2 weeks. That's 15k a day. The fact that it took me months to burn out during that time period is a miracle. But when I'm depressed? Those ideas honestly hurt more than anything else. I still haven't done Amphibia blogs because I just can't get myself to bring my thoughts together independently on the subject for some reason despite the fact that I DO have things to talk about, whether that be talking about what sells the characters as family to me, what makes Sasha's introduction one of the best charismatic villains I've ever seen, how Hop Pop is showcase of fantasy trauma done right, why people CAN skip the first season and how insane that is and even for a more negative one: Why Marcy is so far easily the most awkward element of the show so far that I've seen. Not even bad but just not nearly as natural as the rest. And yes, while I'm still only at the First Temple, you can still send me Amphibia asks. It honestly helps my literal personality disorder to be responding to asks instead of making them myself.

I don't know. I wish I did. My head is a chaotic mess and I honestly just need to learn to calm down a lot more but my literal two main disciplines as a creator require my brain to be on. at maximum volume all the time. And it only gets worse when I go "Well what about Amphibia, or that TMNT series, or Molly Mcgee- Oh but you really ought to be looking for something new. Preferably something you can write for within its first week of airing. Even better if before then. Got to get that ENGAGEMENT after all! GROW YOUR COMMUNITY!" *sigh* And I don't want this to make you all feel bad. PLEASE let me know what you're interested in seeing me maybe talk about. I commonly forget about Arcane because it just flies under my radar for the most part for some reason. Just understand I'm slow to move. I'm trying to get better but I don't know when or if I'll ever be good at it. Edit: Because I feel like it, I do want to shout out a few channels I like to watch. Youtube: Noah Caldwell Gervais is one of the best video game essayists out there. When I talk about just putting on something to zen out to for a few hours... Well, I've watched his 8 hour Resident Evil Retrospective twice. He also has a great, dry sense of humor and great analytical skills. Todd in the Shadows is where I go for pop song reviews. Honestly, I'm pulled in more by his One Hit Wonderland Series and his Trainwreckords but it's also nice getting incite on modern pop music. If you're into animation, you NEED New Frame Plus in your life. Daniel Floyd is absolutely amazing at his job, he's ex-Pixar so that's not surprising, and pretty much all I know about animation comes from that channel. Absolutely phenomenal work. Twitch: CauseImDanJones is my favorite streamer period. Not only is his chill vibes immaculate, he has this insane talent to say the most bat shit crazy things and act like they're entirely normal. He never is an over the top streamer but he still manages some of that "WHAT JUST HAPPENED!?" energy those people have. JHobz296 is someone you likely know if you watch GDQ. For those who don't know him though: He's my go to for speedrun content. He does a lot of Kingdom Hearts speedruns, does a lot of Kingdom Hearts 2 Rando WAY better than I do and when he does variety, he keeps it laid back and casual. (I like chill streamers). Gilbot9000 is my last callout. He does a lot of fighting game streams and likes to throw it back old school, or play games with an old school vibe to them. He's a nice dude and a good friend of mine so I'd be remiss to not mention him.

[carli-in-the-morning]

Thought Dump/Anxious Ramble

[QUICK WARNING: this is gonna have my unfiltered anxious thoughts here about getting people in trouble, backing out of things, feeling lost & scared & not knowing what to do. If you don't wanna read or deal with my stupid 15 year old anxiety, I completely understand, scroll on by]

Howdy hey! I've had....a terrible awful horrible no good very bad day. And this is that. But first! Some context for our tale.

So I am a self appointed not great person. I'm not a good role model. I do things that are kinda not what your supposed to. Namely, I go out at 2 in the morning and hang with my friends. But Cho, you may ask, how is that not what you're supposed to do? It's actually, where I live, illegal to go outside past 10 pm if you are my age. You can face fines for it. But I do it anyway, been doing it for about a year now. I have only EVER been caught ONCE, but that was by my parents as I sat on our basement floor. They brushed it off and let it be, so really, I've never gotten into any trouble for this. I typically had only gone out with my one girl friend, we'll call her Beth. But last month, I convinced my one guy friend to come out with me, we'll call him Tony. Tony is very new to it all, but Beth and I aren't. He hasn't gotten the entire stealth down pack yet. Which brings us to why I've been having a bad day.

Last night, since I was cat sitting for my grandparents, I had part of the house all to myself. Which fucking ruled, I could get in and out no problemo, and we could even chill at my place. Which we did. He came over, we played Smash (I did horrible), fucked around on Sims, and had a pleasant time. Now, it's a weekday. His dad and grandma wake up earlier in weekdays because...jobs. I asked when Tony wanted to be home by, he said we could leave at like 5:00 (10 minute walk, he'd be home at 5:10)....or he proposed he could stay later and wait for his dad to leave, so we'd leave at like 7:00, get him home at 7:10 (we actually ended up leaving at 7:20ish...so...). I said, as long as he was sure he wouldn't get caught, I was fine with that. We had a blast and then I walked with him most of the way home. I go home, sit down and judt kinda chill. Low and behold, I get a text. (All messages paraphrased for privacy sake):

Tony: Door in was stuck. Good news, my grandma was still home and let me in without asking any questions. Bad news, she might tell my mom that I was outside for no reason at 7:30. But maybe she won't!

Me: Just say you went on a walk after you got woken up by a cat. Don't tell the full truth, but certainly don't lie.

Tony: Yeah, I went for a walk and the door got stuck.

Me: Exactly

Okay....not ideal. But he has an alibi thought out and there's a chance he won't need it. I'm not that concerned. I go about my day, then I get a message on Discord at 5 something in the afternoon:

Tony: So, my mom found out. She's firm on me never doing this again and it all ends now. So, if we wanna do this again, then we're gonna need to wait a long while. I don't think she'll know I can contact you here, so let's chat here.

Me: oof

Tony: In hindsight, maybe we shouldn't have done it so often.

Me: Yeah, but for now lay low. Do everything you can to be helpful and good. Be an angel child and if your parents catch on, say that you just felt guilty and upset for dissapointing them.

Tony: I'll try to fix my sleep schedule as a start, try and get that in check

Me: Yeah, do that. That's a good idea.

Tony: also my mom has my phone. She looked through our texts and said if she caught us again, she'd tell your mom.

Now that....is beyond terrifying. If my mom knew I did this......I'd be dead. She'd cook me and serve me for dinner. My ass would get kicked into the year 3928. Oh, and another bit of context. I had been planning a movie day in two days for Tony and another friend of ours, let's call him Chris. Apparently Tony had not asked his mom yet.

Me: So how much trouble are you in rn, getting in more trouble to watch movies with Chris and I is not a smart idea.

Tony: Uh-huh...because asking to go to watch movies with the girl I've been sneaking out with is entirely clever.

Tony: also, she saw in your contact info that "she said I had a big dick" (inside joke)

Me: oh excellent

Tony: I dont think I ever told my fam you're gay

Me: least of our fucking concerns, we'll deal with that later. Right now I wanna get you in the clear.

Tony: can't do anything rn dude

So. Now onto my anxiety.

I am so fucking scared right now, because the entire time we've been doing this, I've preached that I'd rather take my fingernails off with a bottle opener than get him in trouble, which is true. I would so much rather get myself in trouble than him, and yet not only did I fail myself, I failed him. I told him repeatedly that I wouldn't let him get in trouble, and now he is and it's my fault. I should've remembered that his grandma woke up early too, he told me that. I should've reminded him. I didn't. Or I should've pushed for him to leave earlier or I should've kept him later. Or I should've never convinced him to join my stupid antics. And because of me and my faults, he's now in hot water. It is entirely my fucking fault. And not only did I get him in trouble, I could've run the risk of getting myself in trouble. Which is a death sentence in my house.

And also! That movie day? Yeah, so, Chris does soccer. And currently he had a very busy soccer lifestyle. His phone is also broken. So he had to put in literal effort to respond to me in the planning process. He just gave the okay for doing it. And now Tony can't go, and I don't wanna cancel on Chris after he A) said he was looking forward to it. And B) put in effort to make the time to respond to me and make this work for him. I'd feel like a bitch for cancelling. But most of the movies we are gonna watch were because Tony hadn't seen them. So I don't wanna watch them without him, but I don't wanna have it be really awkward with just me and Chris for like....8 and a half hours (the original planned time, given our movie list runtimes). I'm not really an entertaining person! Especially not for that long. I wouldn't know what to do! And I don't know if we could shorten the time or if I could even be sure that he would see my messages! So I can't cancel it or keep it going.

Overall I don't know what to do and I'm panicked and stressed. I feel so useless.....

If anyone has advice...I could really use it. Because I.....I messed up....I messed up big time

#cho rambles