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#I envy the friendships that can somehow be extremely close while also remaining stable
wholemleko
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10 months
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#full of so much vicious envy
#envying the people who got to grow up and stay stable
#I miss when I could read fast and spell correctly consistently
#I envy the friendships that can somehow be extremely close while also remaining stable
#I envy the people who can feel safe about other people
#I don't even know how to put it into words
#I envy the people who can hold a job
#and the people who can do it in spite of the horrors
#and I'm grateful I still have a roof over my head
#but this rant is about feeling weak and pathetic in part
#cause last time I tried to do a chore more intense than putting away a couple of dishes I spiraled
#how am I supposed to live
#i can't afford treatment
#and I don't think those who have money they can spend on me see treatment as a necessity that is urgent
#so what can I do anyways. rot
#I envy the people who can just fucking live and still have a grasp on their own mind and abilities
#and who are able to be normal about other people
#feel normal about human connection
#not be craving it desperately while fearing it violently
#I want to be able to write like I used to
#but I never want to love the way I used to love every again
#I envy people who can enjoy something and not let it take control over their mind to an irrational and stupid degree
#where things that at the end of the day do not matter in my life still make me go into fight or flight the instant I wake up in the morning
#vent
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