#I don't want to kill myself I have Saweetie and I come home to get everyday and I love her

[halalgirlmeg]

The covid post I just saw happened to link with something I saw yesterday and I *opens window*

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#WHEN DOES IT END #what will it take for people to care about themselves #I wish there was something I could do to make people care about themselves #care about others but I can't #like everytime things just get worse and I'm like what happens if my life gets worse man #what if the worst happens to me #things are finally getting better #I don't want to kill myself I have Saweetie and I come home to get everyday and I love her #I'm playing bass again and I forgot how much I missed it #even when it's hard and when it sucks I love it so much #I'm writing and have book ideas for Nano again #literally last time I completed nano was 5 years ago which is when I wrote the story I'm now revisinf #and when I wrote that story I was staying up until 3 am depressed as fuck but I had my book and I had so much fun #and even rereading it and revising it feels like something special #and I have this new venture that's new for me yet going back to my roots and I'm so excited #but covid is like always hanging in the bg and everyday I wake up I thank Allah swt that I'm still here #cause people seem fine and then go to bed and don't wake up #and that's always on my mind #whatever I'm just tired and sometimes it feels like this'll go on forever #and maybe it'd be one thing if I lived alone and knew everyone in my circle was masking and at least trying #but they aren't so what's a girl to do #random