#FUCK everything ahaha the one day my mother is also not motivated and entirely unhelpful and *no one* is responding to my texts to skype

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hm worked myself into a panic attack (not hard right now) and now im very dissociated again trying not to catastrophize about my midterm tomorrow

#i cant do written responses right now lmao my brain is On Fire and all i can verbalize is 'yeah those sure are some artworks' but not even #because this is contemporary art and a lot of the later stuff is just fucking. lines. yves what's his face just painted the canvas blue and #somehow that matters idk #i mean it's new realism. don't remember what new realism is but the blue canvas was like. the sky. so i suppose it works. #my semi-nonsense responses have gotten As before but that's bc i have actual time to figure out what the concept im thinking of is in words #so whats the point of studying! it feels doomed before ive even started so why fucking bother #FUCK everything ahaha the one day my mother is also not motivated and entirely unhelpful and *no one* is responding to my texts to skype #tonight the One night i really actually need Someone Else to talk out loud to while i work and there's No One available just my luck #we're all busy i get it i get it i get it *and* idk how to make my brain Function Enough to get Anything done #ive tried remote/only over text study sessions with fivable ive tried making a list ive given myself breaks im working laying down #***what else is there*** #the dissociation is going away in the process and now im just crying lol