#Equilibrium can't tell you if you're up or down and you keep shifting directions out of your control.

[blue-kyber]

I remember what happened.

I'm Caesar on the Ides of March.

#Got my memory back #Memory loss is fun to play with in fiction but in reality... #-10/10 DO NOT RECOMMEND #It is fucking terrifying #It's terrifying to have emotions you can't connect to anything. #It's terrifying not knowing. #You feel lost and scared and confused and scattered and directionless #You have no point of reference so it's like flying blind without a way to determine orientation #so you feel that stomach dropping roller coaster effect constantly and throw up from motion sickness. #Equilibrium can't tell you if you're up or down and you keep shifting directions out of your control. #Conflicting sensory information in your brain makes you nauseous hurts your entire body and you barf repeatedly until you have a way to tel #what's up and what's down. #And you're crying because it hurts You keep barfing and you can't stop it #You're helpless to stop it. You're helpless to stop the pain #It's a fucking horrifying torture #I've thrown up since this happened. #This is why I haven't eaten more than a few bites of food in the past 2.5 days #I still feel trapped in a living nightmare. #Again. I do not recommend memory loss.