#EVERYTHING.. kind of like with All I Want For Chirstmas Is You - like I don't think anyone thinks it’s an objectively awful song the

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3, 4, 7, and 17 for the cs christmas ask game!

3. Favorite Captain Swan scene?

Oh man... So I'm going to go with something that I don't think will be a surprise if you're familiar with the kind of thing I write.

I have never experienced any goodbye in a show as painful as this. I couldn't see through the tears. I had to pause it. It hurt SO badly and I loved it. I have cried equally hard every time I've rewatched this episode, I have sat there and begged for it not to happen, almost made my palms bleed with not wanting him to move on and for them to be apart and I sit there pleading with Zeus to send him back to her even though I know what's going to happen. But if there was any CS moment in the entire series that I wish I could watch for the first time again. It is this.

So maybe that's why all my fics are so brutally feelsy... ooops?

4. What are some non-Captain Swan ships you ship?

Ooooh... um... I don't ship anything in quite the way I ship CS tbh. No other couple has ever consumed me to the point where everything I write in the fandom centres around them. Anything I watch or read I'm wondering if I can turn it into a CS fic. I can't write them ending up with anyone else unless it's poly.

That said, I'm a huge fan of Frozen Jewel if at all possible, and I like putting Liam with Belle too. Snowing, obviously. Jefferson is fun to put with random people... though I'm seriously considering putting him, Graham and August in a trio in a fic at some point.

7. Do you have a favourite holiday tradition?

So I'm a soprano and, for me, Chirstmas isn't Christmas until I've sung some descants. Hark the Herald is my favourite, closely followed O Come all ye faithful. Oh Come Oh come Emmanuel has a really fun descant too!

17. What does Christmas mean to you?

Magic, in whatever way you can find it. In the twinkle of lights on a tree or the light in someone's eyes when they open a present and it's what they were hoping for, to thinking about the religious aspects.

#captain swan #cs christmas ask game #secret santa ask game

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idk if its just having learned too much about efficient conflict resolution/healthy communication or simply that I’m a boring silly person or etc. etc. but I often run into the issue of having to pause shows/movies and walk away for a while because I am SO annoyed by the way characters handle things in the most nonsensical way imaginable.. 

It’s weird since I actually always find it very difficult to relate to any characters, so it's not out of emotional attachment/personal stakes (more the opposite lol, I usually view them all neutral or negative, am only there for the world lore or sets/costumes) yet despite my overall detachment from anything that happens (often have no investment in how the plot actually turns out, etc) -  it’s like... just the sheer act of witnessing blatant easily solvable miscommunications or situations that go SO poorly is enough to gradually grate at my nerves 

(maybe it’s also that I'm a very problem solver/solution oriented type of person  so my brain may be a bit more rigid about that - like I don't ever really ENJOY seeing stuff go wrong, it’s not intriguing or interesting to me, usually just stressful because I can imagine all the ways it could have easily been avoided/want to solve it/, etc. As opposed to others who are maybe able to turn that part of their brain off and see it as entertainment, etc.)

And, I understand that for plots to happen, generally something has to go wrong, I mean usually plot is based on conflict (in SOME form), so I don't know how to articulate why exactly SOME plots bother me so much and others don't, but for some reason there's just a very specific type of story event where the things that are apparently meant to have stakes seem SO forced and completely irrational or senseless that it's like.. legitimately impossible to watch lol 

(I don’t mean in a overly nitpicky cinemasins style criticism way but just.... you don’t even have to be nitpicking details to see that it’s like... why do NONE of anyone’s actions or motivations make any sense and half of you resolve conflicts like a 5 year old... HOW is this meant to be interesting to watch in any way..?? like Flawed characters can be fun!! I’m not saying everyone must have 100% perfect communication skills, but there’s a difference between having well established repeated patterns of behavior due to character flaws and “Oops! The Story Demands That We Lack Common Sense At Random”)

#maybe it's the type of conflict also? I seem to not mind conflict as much if it's like 'character vs outside factors out of anyones control' #or the conflict is that characters need XYZ thing and don't have it or complex ideological disareements between characters that aren't clear #cut so they keep butting heads over it. etc. etc. but when it's stuff like ''character who SUPPOSEDLY implied to be a master strategist #routinely makes the WORST decisions imaginable' or 'two chars have a conflict that could be easily resolved with a simple 5 minute convo' or #character who is supposedly mistrusting and cold falls into traps and is easily manipulated by person who might as well be wearing an 'I Am #Evil And Will Betray You Immediately' t-shirt.. like.. hello?? i hate all of you #and it's often this on TOP of other things that already annoy me - like straight romances or etc. etc. #It’s not that I necessarily inherently have anything against cishet (straight romance specifically between a cis woman and cis man) relation #ships in media but I think it’s just something you get tired of seeing since forced romance (especially of that kind) is in #EVERYTHING.. kind of like with All I Want For Chirstmas Is You - like I don't think anyone thinks it’s an objectively awful song the #vocals are good. music itself is fine. etc. - BUT still it’s SO overplayed around holidays that when it #comes on most people groan and whine and moan and wish they’d play ANYTHING ELSE. Media is sort of the #same way when I start a new TV show and in the first episode cardboard cutout stink ass Male Main Character gives his first glance to boring #underdeveloped Female Main Character and you just.. know.. that there’s going to be some annoying romance or something you groan and whine a #and hope that they both blow up #OR WHEN i FINALLY actually like or relate to a character in ANY way and they ruin them by forcing them into a straight romance #any character I've ever had even moderate care for (which isn't many lol) is usually more like.. aro ace coded or at least usually #like the weird hermit nerd unemotional genius sociopath detached from society isolated whatever etc. etc. - you know the character #archetype I mean. and they ALWAYS are like 'aww but actually they're lonely.. some poorly written other character that they have #zero chemistry with must finally get through their Icy Exterior and finally they can feel Happy and Loved' liek guiejnhjknJKGBHRJGBEJHBTH #listen you KNOW this man (it's usually a man) is NOT interested in anyone and even if he WAS he would be some eccentric #old gay wizard or evil scientist or something but you KNOW IN YOUR HEART he would not date a cis woman.. ESPECIALLY NOT #THIS ONE *points at the generic romantic interest character that literally has nothing in common with them at all and is only there to be #The Opposite Of Them and Teach Them Humanity * .. let him be isolated in his wizard tower and HAPPY ABOUT IT you cowards #now look at what you've done to him.. you've tried to make him a Normal Human With Normal Emotions and you've RUINED him #BUT ANYWAY jhgibhj that's another pet peeve but not the main one I'm talking about right now lol #This is another reason I rarely watch stuff lol.. like i WANT to see the costumes and the world and maybe get aesthetic inspiration but.. #god... sitting through the plots and characters.. There's definitely a scale like some shows are actually reasonable OR are completely nonse #nse and every character is a dumbass but in a fun actually entertaining way.. but ..hhh.. so many times it's just like No.. I Can't Do This #long post