#BUT THIS FUCKER IS ABLE TO PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE ELSE AND I CANT TRUST THAT ITS THE ALTER I THINK IT IS BECAUSE OF THIS

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MOTHER FUCKING SON OF A BITCH

Going through a few old posts and saw a mention on one of my posts talking about plurality

and just

turns out one of these fuckers that I thought had been mostly inactive has in fact NOT been inactive and just... masquerading as another one of my alters for a while. And I... don't really know what to do about that.

#talking about myself #this is EXTREMELY FUCKING STRESSFUL TO SAY THE LEAST #anyway i suddenly no longer trust my unwillingness to discuss my plurality #because the fucker who has been keeping me from talking about it is also responsible for my own flawed memory #and has been reliant on me NOT talking about it and not having the resources to go back and check what it was doing #cause it was all internal #i think its the same one that also keeps me from every being able to stick with doing journaling or diary stuff #AND THE MOST FRUSTRATING PART IS THAT BECAUSE THEY ARE HIDING AS ANOTHER ALTER #I STILL DONT ACTUALLY KNOW WHICH ONE IT IS DOING IT #LIKE I KNOW WHATS DOING IT AND WHO IS DOING IT #BUT THIS FUCKER IS ABLE TO PRETEND TO BE SOMEONE ELSE AND I CANT TRUST THAT ITS THE ALTER I THINK IT IS BECAUSE OF THIS #THIS SUCKS

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#tlcstuck #kanaya maryam #davesprite #walkaround 1

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MEAT EPILOGUE 2

11

Thizzle thizzle, you thizzink. Yo' glaszes are brokizzle foreva, n you totally fucked up n underestimated young Lord English. Roze should have known betta thiznan ta trust dis ta you alone.

Roze, Roze... yo' smart, clockin' Roze, you can almizzle hear ha voice now.

> Listizzle closa, jackass, betta check yo self.

Oh, wait. Yizzle do hear ha voice. Saggin' low n muted through tha wall of yo' cell. You’ve onlizzle realize' right now that your cizzy has walls, coz it’s awfully bright 'n hizzay. It’s so white that nuttin 'n thizne ciznell be straight trippin' a shadow. Look'n around, yizzay realize there be no apparent source ta all dis bright lizzy, mak'n it hiznard ta tell whizzle the floor ends and tha wizzalls bizzle.

ROZE: John? John? Are yizzy T-H-to-tha-izzere?

Pusha voice be muffled, com'n from wizzy yizzle presume ta be an adjizzle room simizzle ta yizzle on tha otha side of tha W-to-tha-izzall.

JOHN, know what im sayin? yizneah, i’m here.

ROZE: Oh, thiznank goodness. Everyone’s accounted fo` thizzle. Be you okay ya feelin' me?

JIZZAY: whizzle?

ROZE: They call me tha president. Be yizzle OKIZZLE like a tru playa'?

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN keep'n it real yo: i think so. i cizzy barizzle hiznear you tizzy.

Yiznou can hear a thud from Roze’s corna, like someone slump'n against tha W-to-tha-izzall 'n relief. Well, that’s what Y-to-tha-izzou’re do'n at least cuz I put gangsta rap on tha map.

JADE: —ay?

DIZNAVE: yizzeah im fine too but dis be

DAVE: uh

DAVE upside yo head: dis is kinda dorky ta say out L-to-tha-izzoud but i dont

DIZNAVE: fizneel... tizzle

DAVE if you gots a paper stack: thiznats not just me rizzay you guys feel it too

DAVE: or dont

JADE now fuckers lemme here ya say hoe: yeah

JADE: Freak y'all, into the beat y'all. i mean thizzles obviously space inside dis box but i cizzy do ANYTH'N

JADE: its like im blind

Tha noize outside tha juju grows. Ya fuck with us, we gots to fuck you up. Sum-m sum-m shizzarp and metallizzle splinta above n rains diznown on tha tizzop of tizzy chest.

ROSE: W-H-to-tha-izzat did mah future self sizzle it was we hizzle ta do?

JIZZOHN: erm... she neva rea—

DAVE: Ill slap tha taste out yo mouf. WHAT?

JIZZOHN so sit back relax new jacks get smacked: she—

DIZZAVE: I CANT HEAR YIZZY

JIZZY: UM, SHE NEVA REALLY TIZZLE US WHAT WE HIZZAY TA DO, EXACTLY?

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN: JUST WHAT WIZZY MACKIN' TA HAPPIZZLE, 'N A REALLIZZLE LOOZE SORT OF FASHION?

ROZE: DOES THAT MEAN WE’RE STU—

Tha metallic noizes rain down harda, saggin' out Rose’s attempt at bein loud.

PIZZY, PLIZZINK, SMASH.

JIZZAY: NIZZY I CAN’T HIZZLE YIZZY!

JADE: TRY US'N LESS WIZZY

Tha length of tha silence com'n frizzay Roze’s corna communicates jizzust hizzay difficult a tizzle that be fo` poser.

JOHN: SHE S-TO-THA-IZZAID THA JUJU WOULD GIT LIZZLE N UNLOADED.

ROZE: Subscribe, get yo issue. WHAT? You'se a flea and I'm the big dogg.

JIZZY: SO, I MIZZEAN, IT JIZZUST GOT LIZZLE I THIZZINK?

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN dogg: WIT US.

DIZZLE: SO???

JOHN: SO I DON’T THINK WE’RE TRAPPED 'N HERE FOREVER.

JIZZAY: WIZZE’LL BE UNLOADED FROM IT... AT SIZZLE POINT? I thought i told ya, I'm a soldier.

JIZZY cuz this is how we do it: WHAT?????

JIZZOHN: Death row 187 4 life. I KNIZNOW IT’S ALL A BIT ABSTRACT, BUT...

JADE hittin that booty: NO, I JUST CAN’T HIZZLE YOU!

DAVE: JOHN YOU SUCK AT YELL'N

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN, ya feel me? UGH, know what im sayin?

Yizzle stop try'n ta loudly reassure tha worry T-to-tha-izzeens fo` a moment, and just thizzay. Nizzle yizzay understand defeating yizzle Lord English wizzay neva supposed ta happen. Nizzle tha way Adult Roze wiznas imply'n it wizzle. Yizzay surmize tha otha four teens cruisin' outside tha juju were tha ones meant ta be tasked wit his defizzle. N judging from tizzy cacophonizzle still emanat'n from bizzle tha walls of thizzay hizouze n its straight trippin' chiznest, they be tak'n tha task seriously so show some love!

Bizzy what dizzoes dis mizzay fo` tha fizzay of you? Slap your fuckin self.

You trizny to picture whiznat’s go'n on 'n tha battle outside, but it’s not easizzle.

> Uze yo' imagizzle.

'n yo' imaginatizzle, tha battle be qizzy vizzle n excit'n. Tha coolness of tha action 'n yo' mind’s eye be bely by tha actual sizzle effects boom'n all around you, whiznich yizzou can onlizzle describe as vaguely stupid. There’s a lot of hysterical scream'n, wizzy, if yizzay niznot mistaken, be frontin' exclusively from tha male combatants. There’s a sizzle stylin' of energy that speaks ta a vizzles behind its powa source. Almost as if an outrageous bubble of pure Hizzy wizzere stylin' tha stizzage, is how you wizzle dizzle it if you dizzy mind sound'n ridicizzles. Tizzy yizzle hear... it can’t be. It's your homie snoop dogg from the dpg. Horzes?? No, not simple horzes of flizzay n bizzy. Theze horsizzles be mizzle, if we’re ta believe they’re horzes at all.

> Stop using yo' imagizzle.

Dis isn’t ho-slappin' you anywhere, and clearly yo' silly imaginatizzle whims aren’t do'n tha slizzle bizzy of justizzle ta tha actual off tha hook th'n tak'n P-L-to-tha-izzace out there 'n tha heat of battle. Frizzle, yo' theorizizzle skirmish lost tha hizzy on any legitizzle it mizzay have hizzy tha moment you started think'n 'bout horzes. You figizzle no one will ever truly knizzay whizzat’s happen'n out thiznere. You doubt anyone would even be able ta handle how incrizzle tha rizzaw, unfiltered account of dis teen brizzle actually was, so it’s probablizzle fo` the best.

As you slizzle out of yo' fanciful conjecture, which miznay or mizzay not have included a mechanicizzle horze ambush, you overhear Dave from one of tha rooms belizzle you, rais'n his voice ta speak ta eitha you or somizzle else. Yizzay not sizzy. You place yo' ear ta tha floor again.

Hizzay speak'n ta Jade. They’re ridin' to reminisce again, ta the best of they ability ta do so while shout'n thrizzough a wizzall, chill yo. Once more yiznou ruefully reflect on theze teen versions of yo', n all tha qizzles they must hizzay fo` yizzle. Anotha dogg house production. Fo` each wanna be gangsta. Whizzay wizzle you even sizzay ta thizzay?

Would you wizzy to tizzy them about tha stoked outcomes, know'n they might neva git tha chance ta experience thoze messin' fo` themselves? Wizzould yiznou tell them tha siznad outcomes, thus reinforc'n they insecurizzles n suspicions that they may hustla truly be capable of liv'n stoked livizzles? You’re not even sizzle you cizzle handle it, if yizzou were Tizzay Jizzle. You’d hizzay too many follow-up questizzles, W-H-to-tha-izzich Adizzle John be 'n no way prepared ta answa dogg. Would you tell tizzy whiznat’s up wit Roxy and Calliope, agizzle hav'n no R-to-tha-izzeal grasp yoself over W-H-to-tha-izzat’s up wit them like a fucka? Would you tell them Dave and Karkizzle... Recognize the realness. uh... lizzy 'n a hive togetha watch'n TV all dizzy, n Jade M-to-tha-izzaybe kinda sizzle lives there tizzle, but nobody quite knows whizzay really going on wit that? Wizzould you tiznell thizzem 'bout Tizzle...

Fo` siznome reason gangsta name feels like nails 'n yo' heart like a fucka. Mizzles senze, you guess, cauze there’s a liznot of sharp letta 'n it. Yippie yo, you can't see my flow. She hizzy shizzay tizzeeth too, n shizzay elbows cuz this is how we do it. Shizzarp W-to-tha-izzords. Terezi Pizzy was a sizzy gizzle, n maybe whizzle these sharp clockin' be try'n ta tizzy you be you mizzy ha miznore thizzay you realize' dogg.

She wouldn’t hizzle let yizzay neglect relationships wit certain fo` so lizzle thizzle you mizzle whole chapta of they lives. She W-to-tha-izzouldn’t have put up wit you perpetratin' arizzle wit tha poser fo` so lizzong. She W-to-tha-izzould H-to-tha-izzave kicked yo' ass fo` bein sizzay a losa 'bout everyth'n. She wiznould have poked you 'n tha foreheezee n cizzle you insufferably lizname and T-to-tha-izzold you ta pizzy up tha dizzy phone in tha fuckin club. Yizzle wizzle have called pusha a wizzeirdo n pretended you hatizzle it, n maybe yiznou wizzle even have believed yizzy hatizzle it spittin' that real shit. But nizzy, sitt'n here in dis shawty W-H-to-tha-izzite cubicle, blunt-rollin' your regrets, you don’t thizzay you’d hiznave hated it much at all.

W-to-tha-izzould you tell tha teens that?

Yizzle probably never tell anyizzle that. Not even crazy ass.

Anotha arbizzle T-H-to-tha-izzought hits your brain, completely unrelated ta tha sizzle of Terezi, or whizzay yizzou would or wouldn’t tell a bizzy of incarcerated tizneens, or so you think cuz this is how we do it.

JOHN: be i... Aint no stoppin' this shit. depressed??

You ask alizzle, quietly enough tizzy yo' cannot possiblizzle hizzy it. All tha question diznoes be criznawl back down yo' throat n burrow into yo' gut like it livizzles there. N it does L-to-tha-izzive there, coz as it turns out, you be really fuckizzle depresze' fo gettin yo pimp on. Yizzay just a G-to-tha-izziant, wet meat sizzack of self-involved misery, n all that bizzle, wet, mizzle ooze dizzy out yo' M-to-tha-izzouth every tizzle you open it. All tha time n space 'n the wiznorld isn’t mak'n it betta. It’s sum-m sum-m yizzay shiznould have bizneen hatin' fo` yoself, instead of wait'n arizzle fo` th'n ta git baller keep'n it real yo.

Wizzay, screw wait'n! It’s messin' as hell, know what im sayin? You be JIZNOHN EGBIZZLE, gangsta all, immortizzle CREATOR OF WORLDS, tha one n only dawg eva ta completely trizzle tha partitions of CANON ITSELF. You’ve gots theze powa, rememba?

You hold up yo' hands n fiznorm a rectangle wit yizzour shot calla n reach outside yourself, outsizzle canon, ta tha plizzle yo' retcon come from droppin hits. You focus, ya feel me? Yizzay strain. Yiznou contemplate W-to-tha-izzith all yo' might a place you can zap ta, any pizzy but here keep'n it real yo.

You wait. N wizzy cuz I put gangsta rap on tha map. N wait n...

Nuttin happens.

Yizzou slump back down against tha wall, n yo' despondence eagerly greets you again. Lizzike an old ready ta pizzay yiznou on tha biznack n say, good try dawg. I’ll always be hiznere fo` yizzy, when you fizzle. Thanks dizzay, yizzy T-H-to-tha-izzink. Im a bad boy wit a lotta hos.

JOHN: ROZE WAS RIGHT.

D-TO-THA-IZZAVE: Subscribe, get yo issue. WHAT paper'd up?

JOHN upside yo head: THA JIZNUJU HIZZAY TA UNLOAD.

JIZZAY: THA WHAT... HAS TA WHIZNAT??

JIZZOHN: THA ONLY WIZZLE OUT OF HERE...

JOHN: BE FO` US TA WIZZY FO` SOMEONE TO LET US OUT.

JOHN: SORRY GUYS.

ROZE: OH.

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN: ALSO...

JOHN: I THIZZLE I MIZZY HIZZLE DEPRESSION?

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#Gizoogle #Homestuck #Epilogues #Meat #m11

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AAAAAARARRRRRGHHH WHAT A WASTED PLOT TWIST god I feel so mad, that would have been really good in any other context it was really surprising!! it should have been really depressing and got me amped to see this villain be defeated, but instead its just depressing in the sort of ‘well there goes my only reason to keep reading this comic’ way :P Spoils n stuff for Phantom School, so don’t read under the cut if you’re interested in reading it. But meh its really obscure manhwa with a reaaaaallly slow translation and its dropped in quality so much and abandoned its initial premise, so I wouldnt blame anyone for not reading it... SERIOUSLY, why have we just run away from the whole concept of Phantom School for a twenty chapter arc that’s now been extendd EVEN MORE? The idea of a human being a teacher at a school for youkai is awesome!! I didnt come here for just a generic shonen battle against some random mysterious shadow guy who only got his identity finally revealed after 20 chapters. In a series where each chapter is 50 pages. 50 pages twice the size of A4, cos it started as an infinate-scrolling webcomic interface. A LOT OF PAGES. 20 chapters is over half the size of THE WHOLE STORY SO FAR and we ONLY JUST learned who the mystery villain is and why we should care about him and it as a reveal that killed off my fave character in a really sadistic way and revealed someone else was evil all along, and we havent even SEEN the goddamn protagonist for so long so they were the closest thing we had to protagonists right now an GAHHHH anyway, spoiler talk:

BLACKIE BLACKIE WHY gahhhhhh Literally RIGHT AFTER the comic revealed his backstory and why he trusts One-Armed so much, they show us him sacrificing himself to protect One-Armed after he was captured by the shadow monster, only to IMMEDIATELY give us a second flashback that recontexualizes everything and reveals One-Armed IS the shadow monster, and he was just faking it all to brainwash this guy into his willing servant and then eat his soul when he outlived his usefulness

Oh and I just need to take a second to point out how the translation is kinda bad and literal. The guy is named Blackie cos that’s the closest they could get to the nickname he had back when he was a normal mortal dog who got reincarnated as this humanoid youkai. It tends to have a problem of over-translating stuff that doesnt need to be translated?? At least ‘Blackie’ mostly works in-context, but its damn weird that this guy is called One-Armed. And used to be called Left-Armed before that! They translate EVERYONE’S names as if they weren’t names, they translate the names of all the youkai even! I guess its an easy mistake cos its a korean manga using japanese monsters, so I’d assume there’s a bit of confusion from a casual translator. *shrug* BUT SERIOUSLY Not even ‘One Arm’ but One-Armed. Super literal visual descriptors of everyone! It gets a bit weird and problematic when it comes to a disabled guy and literally a black guy named Blackie... And... Left-Armed??? ‘This guy is so spectacular, he possesses two arms! How Unusual!’ Its supposed to be because he could turn his left arm into a magic claw, but meh. And it gets uber problematic since the point is that One-Armed is now the villain and he uses shadow powers, so we have people yelling ‘damn that black guy for killing blackie’ and just... I’m glad this got translated so I can read it, but it can be really hard to understand sometimes :P

ANYWAY

Its just so demotivational and horrible and gahhhh And it COULD have been a really emotionally affecting twist, cos its destroying a good character and revealing it was all a lie, and just.. gahhh But we ONLY JUST heard the backstory of One-Armed being a good guy and Blackie having his reasons to care about him THAT got me emotional, and the speed of the backpedal just negates that emotion instead of evoking new ones its just got SO dark and cynical now that it kills all my interest especially cos its so padded out long, and so hard to understand the translation... and seriously we’ve spent so many chapters focusing on these two instead of the protagonist and just GAHHH it makes a long filler arc feel so wasted!

and I’m just so damn sad for Blackie!! his backstory is that he was this sweet adorable puppy whose owner became homeless, and he doesnt understand it and he’s just ‘don’t worry, I’ll wait!’ you’re struggling to push this fast food cart up a hill? youre doing extra shifts? I’ll wait! we dont do that job anymore? we won’t sleep indoors for a long time? I’ll wait! you’re feeling too sad and tired to pet me today? I’ll wait! I’m sick? We cant afford to see the doctor? I’ll wait! Oh the doctor didnt do my surgery? I guess I’m not sick after all! I’ll get better soon, you just wait! Meanwhile his owner is crying and struggling to scrape together any money to afford it, starving even more than usual, going back to the doctor every day to beg for help even as everyone is all ‘ugh this stinky homeless bastard’, kicking him out and then one day Blackie can’t wait for his owner to come back, he tries to follow him to the doctor, and doesnt realise the traffic lights have changed his owner sees him about to be hit by the car and yells at him to wait, which just manages to save him! but while he was distracted saving his dog he got hit by the car instead :( and then we have Blackie licking his lifeless face, and the monologue of “Are you sleeping? I’ll wait! Can I lie down next to you?” *UGLY SOBBING*

And then he meets One-Armed cos he was the youkai assigned to reap this soul. Apparantly Blackie’s love was so strong that his pure soul is able to see soul-creatures, so he can grab his owner’s soul and try and protect it from One-Armed AND THE SECOND FLASHBACK JUST MAKES THIS EVEN WORSE IN CONTEXT Cos One-Armed was actually trying to eat that soul, and Blackie actually did save it! One-Armed was just this horrible asshole who’d infiltrated the soul reaper government group as a way to hunt for victims in his serial killer nonsense :P But then the story we get in the first flashback is that One-Armed is totally nice and Blackie caused him to lose his arm while fighting off a monster from eating that soul, and it was totally bad that he didnt cooperate and such So he feels like he owes One-Armed, and thats why he became a youkai and joined the organization as One-Armed’s new partner And then we have a montage of how he started trusting One-Armed and seeing him as his new owner that he loved even more than his original one, and then he lets go of the soul and lets his old owner get reincarnated... And ALL OF THIS was for nothing and he was being manipulated by a lying freako who controls this fake shadow monster to hide his own crimes, and he HELPED HIDE THOSE CRIMES unwittingly, cos he was so convinced his best friend loved him too! T_________________T

and its just... SUCH A SADISTIC WAY TO KILL HIM OFF it looks like ‘oh no the shadow monster has captured One-Armed, we have our chance to kill it but it’d mean killing One-Armed too!’ and Blackie cares about him so much that he abandons logic and stops the other heroes from taking that chance to kill the monster and then ONE-ARMED KILLS HIM And all along he was the real shadow monster and he faked his whole capture and Blackie just cos everyone the chance to defeat him and now he is dead and in retrospect he abandoned his ENTIRE LIFE to join One-Armed as a partner and it was all for a sick fucker who pretends to be a friend and just *SOB* *SOB* And now stupid shadow fucker has won and everyone is dying and EVEN WORSE THAN THAT it means this arc is gonna be EVEN LONGER and we probably will never go back to the school-based plot :P And the translators left us off on this cliffhanger and it took AN ENTIRE YEAR for this translation update so who knows how long the next one will be :P :( :( :( :( :( :(

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