#At least the tics and neuro issues aren’t quite as bad as they usually are without weed

[arlo-venn]

Now that marijuana is fully out of my system, the night terrors and getting trapped in nightmare loops for entire irl days at a time and the waking up kicking and screaming has returned! 🤠 And so far they’ve all been about the family that I am entirely estranged from for very good reasons 🤠 And my tics and waking seizures are making a come back! I’m having a lot of fun! 🤠

#I dream extremely vividly #I can read in dreams and use my phone like normal #Scroll through and text and all that #Phone calls are usually garbled but the rest is just like reality #I die in my dreams #I feel the physical pain #I feel them holding me down #I feel the wind on my face as I run run run from them #Woke up screaming for Tyrell this morning #Couldn’t stay awake and was dragged back into the loop #Kicked the fuck out of the shelf next to my bed recently #Woke up in a running crawl (right off my very tall bed) #Neck muscles enraged from the irl head flinging #At least the tics and neuro issues aren’t quite as bad as they usually are without weed #I assume because of the naltrexone? #which I will be out of soon with no $ to refill too :( #but low dose naltrexone does not help with the dreaming #only weed has ever helped with the dreaming #but hey I have been less nauseous these last few days at least #so that’s a win #idk what kind of tw to put on this post I’m sorry #I haven’t seen them in ten years irl #and now they’re torturing me every time I sleep #and it is so so so real #getting some dream things and reality things mixed up again #am confused #everything is a lot! all at once! always! #makes zero sense for stuff from compunding pharmacies to not be covered by insurance #makes zero sense for medical marijuana to be legal but not covered by insurance #compounding*