#And it's amazing bc I had so much doubt when talking to benja

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Oh boy I'm talking to this guy that added me on ig and it's been so amazing so far like we talk for hours and it was just like so much chemistry in idk 2 days lmao true love exists and it's a Millenials Only Experience, don't be fooled by Shakespeare or whatever

#And it's amazing bc I had so much doubt when talking to benja #And it was so hard to keep. The conversation going at times #And he didn't show much interest to talk in person or im so I always felt like I was kinda annoying #Or the creepy gay guy lmao #And we have a lot in common with this guy like he has a lot of opinions and just much more experience overall #Benja is still v young and it shows so it's kind of hard to go into some topics so idk #Yeah he's beautiful and warm and whatever but he's also distant so it's awkward #The whole popper and touchy stuff was prob just how he is and not something special with me #And if it was and he's still not showing real interest to talk then bye not in the mood for smth like that #I'm glad I didn't smoke my blunt w him lmao I'm not sure it's even worth to try it so I can know if he's into me or not #Like I don't see a future there prob just a casual encounter kind of thing #Anyway.... I'll get to know this guy better and just go with it #The third guy I was getting to know is prob gone lmao won't deal with a catholic cola at this point in my life #Also I know this is very bpd!! But it's in control lmao im just exaggerating bc I'd rather take it as a joke