Tumgik
About
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Visit Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Fun Fact
Tumblr was the first site to host the blog for President Barack Obama in 2011.
#And idk now I'm low key freaking out mostly because I'm scared sh1tless of the side effects of the antidepressant
enjoltrwolfstar
·
2 years
Text
-
#I need to vent for a bit but I don't want to make a post cause somehow I'm more comfortable in the tags idk whdjsjs
#I might start doing this kind of post from now on just ignore them if you want it's just gonna be personal stuff mostly
#But I really need to vent cause like some stuff have happened today and i hate twitter
#And tumblr tags always seem more appropriate for psychological deep™ thoughts idk
#Basically my mental health has been to an all time low for the last 2 years but I didn't do anything about it
#Cause I don't like leaving the house even if it's for a medical exam
#But lately I had some symptoms that added to some other physical symptoms I had could be the sign of a really BAD disease
#So I freaked out and I convinced myself I had it so I convinced my mom to go to the hospital to check with a neurologist
#Basically 5 minutes in the room with the neurologist and she not only excluded it was that disease
#But she also after talking for a bit about other stuff in my life she understood it was all psychological
#Basically bad bad anxiety that is ruining my life
#Which I already kinda knew but I didn't really wanted to do anything about it cause self hate and self sabotage
#Basically now she prescribed me antidepressants and Xanax for start
#But I also have to start a journey with a psychiatrist and then once I'm a bit more stable also with a therapist
#And idk now I'm low key freaking out mostly because I'm scared sh1tless of the side effects of the antidepressant
#Especially gaining weight and extreme sleepiness
#I can't afford to sleep too deeply cause I need to be on guard in case my dog isn't feeling good
#Which happens a lot at night and it's the main reason I haven't slept well for the last 2 years
#And my body is like the only thing I don't actively hate about myself
#And when I say the only thing I mean it cause the self hate is strong about EVERYTHING
#Also idk if it makes sense but I'm kind of used to feeling like sh1t all the time I wouldn't know how to feel any other way tbh
#I kinda find comfort in being miserable cause I feel like I deserve it so like feeling bad makes me feel comfortable idk if it makes sense
#But anyway I'm scared and I just needed to vent a bit so yeah
#Might do this again writing in the tags is free therapy yay
1 note
·
View note
Last Seen Blogs
qep0ermint
kratak-je-dan-previse-je-zelja
🔐
kratak-je-dan-previse-je-zelja
🔐
loverofgorgeous2
Lover Of Gorgeous
qep0ermint