#AFGHGHG... the years of confusion and longing and [so i'll watch your life in pictures the way i used to watch you sleep]

[dayurno]

"Exes Kandriel edition" im so curious as to what you mean by that bc I have seen all kinds of variations of "past relationship one ship new relationship another ship" like past andriel now kevineil or whatever but I don't think I've see a single fic where all 3 of them were together and then broke up??? I want to know what your brain is thinking pls share

HEHE WELL honestly the way i thought of it was kind of just kandreil being a thing throughout college/kevins last year but after his graduation he kind of goes m.i.a, in my heart i think about kevin moving out of the states to play exy a lot and i think itd actually be relevant and even important to him to be able to see the world beyond the nest......... but it also means things like different timezones, new people and new languages, an entire new life really that andreil of course do not agree with... i dont think they necessarily part on bad terms but andrew and neil very much dont want him to move away. in the end kevin (midnight rain plays softly in the background) wants the world in more ways than just a small apartment somewhere in denver and two cats you know....

so the fic would be really kevins return to the us a decade later, having broken off things with andreil but still loving them dearly....... right person wrong time kind of thing really.... and then theres andreil who never really stopped waiting for kevin, never stopped thinking about him, but accepted (after a lot of therapy mind you) that theres nothing you can Do when someone wants to/has to leave. i dont think thered even be a need to Rebuild their relationship per se because its always been there!!! andreil still have his stupid books in their apartment and kevins old jackets in their closet... i think theyd even come to pick him up at the airport totally uninvited too... BASICALLY JUST. ahhh you know... getting older and different but still yourself, being waited for when you thought your absence meant nothing, that kind of thing.... would kevin have stayed if he knew how much his absence would hurt them? would they have been as adamant about him staying if they had the insight of older men who know kevins ambitions are just as important as their own?

SO... old men yaoi........ i actually have a lot of thoughts about this you can guess by the long long answer haha i really want to write this (< going insane).... theyve loved him for almost ten years, what is one more? THAT KIND OF THING........ gah getting emotional just thinking about it.... kevin dayyyy!!! its you. its always been you

#asks #IM NORMAL AND THINGS LIKE THAT. ETC #i imagine kevin would come back to the us because of his retirement/to look out for wymack who is ahem. Getting Old Too #SOMETHING OF THE SORT.. #AN D THEN OF COURSE THE GRAY HAIR ETC. im not dead i also want to fuck dilf kev #but really just the topic of waiting for a love/the one that got away..... but as a Poly Thing... AHHGHG #andreil stayed together and they were happy but they never forgot about him #really theyve been waiting. so patiently!!!!!! #IM NORMAL IM SO NORMAL ETCCC #gah (holds back tears) #just thinking about the decade andreil spent loving that man through news and tv appearances and pictures #the stash of old jackets kevin was never able to take with him because he never found it #kevins books on their shelf..... kevins exy dvds neil puts in a literal safe like its his most prized possession... little trinkets of life #that they just. kept. while they waited for him to come back #AFGHGHG... the years of confusion and longing and [so i'll watch your life in pictures the way i used to watch you sleep] #and kevin from the other side of the world still thinking that his absence meant nothing to them #that maybe he was just a fling or a sex thing or . it doesnt matter #SO YOU KNOW.