#..im just rambling at this point wowie anything to procrastinate starting a fic i guess lmao

[the-kipsabian]

also lmao i havent received rejection emails in a while since i didnt apply to anything the entire last month, oh how fun that you have returned to me again disappointment in my ability to go for entry level positions /s

#i think theres a single place from my 10 january applications that hasnt responded yet. so im considering it as good as gone too #and we are now hitting the incredibly awful times for job searching since basically all summer jobs are gone so applying to anything is bad #the only good thing is that i have no deadlines or requirements as of right now. i havent been contacted by officials since my last ones #expired in january but i keep being able to file for unemployment benefits so. idk man. i dont wanna contact them cause then my four #applications a month requirement returns and its SO fucking stressful #like maybe thats why i was much better last month. i didnt have to do that. i would have sent out applications even without the requirement #if there was places but there were like. nothing. so i didnt. and i feel sooooo much better about it #like ofc i would like a job still. obviously. but at the same time when i didnt have to send useless applications that just made me feel #fuck awful and useless and all the other negative emotions? yeah i do feel better. ''surprisingly'' lmao #..im just rambling at this point wowie anything to procrastinate starting a fic i guess lmao #night is an absolute mess on main