#(oh goodness if anyone else sees this please dont reblog this!!!!! sdkjfaskdh)

[jlaireby]

the more i think about toa, what i was going through at the time i got into it, the thoughts on it that fill me, how i view and portray the characters and their relationships,

the more i cant shake the feeling that me being That into this series was a product of not being able to really heal

#spoons #vent #more like Is since im still into it #dsfbhjf its more sad than anything #oof. anyway #(oh goodness if anyone else sees this please dont reblog this!!!!! sdkjfaskdh) #(if you did already thats okay but if you happen to see this pls dont sdjkhfsd) #(man i shouldve been clearer when i made this) #(what im trying to say is that i... never really healed and that toa was just me attempting to force things into the void) #(and while its helped...yknow...id appreciate it if i could deal with my inner demons and traumas in a more effective way) #(maybe its helped and i think it did in many ways) #(but yknow...yeah)