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#(like sh-ing and showing him after as a guilt trip thing)
reginaofdoctorwho
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5 months
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trying very very hard to not want to break up with my boyfriend
#i love him so much
#and i know he loves me
#but my anxiety or depression or both or whatever it is is fucking me up again
#and i don't want it to fuck him up too
#i can't talk about it with him because yeah he already knows i have problems with it
#and he's told me before to tell him if it starts getting bad again
#but also his ex would do that shit to guilt him into not breaking up w her
#(like sh-ing and showing him after as a guilt trip thing)
#and his grandpa shot himself and he was really fucked up by it
#and like i don't think i'm gonna do THAT
#but i don't want to bring those memories up for him
#i just feel like shit all the time my eating and sleeping is getting affected i'm getting migraines more
#i failed out of my college program by 10 points on the final (or 4 on final and 1 on every other test)
#i just feel like shit
#i already had to fucking ask him to keep a bag of shit i could sh with so that i couldn't get to it
#which is gonna be a fucking trip trying to get back
#and YES i will eventually need to get it back since half that shit were gifts
#and if i break up with him i'll need to get it back before then
#like my fucking emotions are getting fucked too
#he got covid a couple weeks ago and we had to miss a concert i was looking forward to since september
#which is fine he's fine everyone is fine
#but i was close to fucking crying and my mom made me go out with her and my brother since she needs help with him sometimes
#so i had to fucking numb
#which i'd been trying not to do
#and today he mentioned that he was hanging out with his friends NYE
#he forgot we had plans for NYE to be together
#kiss at midnight all that shit
#and he was like 'i'm so sorry i thought you were busy i forgot we made plans i can still hang out with you'
#but mentioned how he'd have to pick me up and then drive home super late after
#zel starts to dwell
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