#(beats the reflection of the self in others with a hammer) wtf why do I feel worse? (hammers harder)

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thinking about Jean having clinical depression and jean being a speed addict and jean being weirdly ripped and jean being openly disgusted with Harry's decline into uselessness and making silly little connections in my mind

#guy for whom fantasy ssris didn't work wearing out his bones for free endorphins #taking substances that cause short-term improvement because the future doesn't exist #doing narcissism of small differences to his drug addict ex-gym teacher coworker who isn't Holding It Together anymore #my man that is going to be you in about six years #he has a 10 year head start on the downward spiral #you are just mad because the future is real and its a pathetic middle aged man in piss stained trousers #disco elysium #(beats the reflection of the self in others with a hammer) wtf why do I feel worse? (hammers harder) #Edit: I don’t like him and none of these facts endear him to me.