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darkconsumed · 4 months

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@tattlesandtales (van) gets a post season 2 plotted thing.

The day she walked out of those doors, she promised herself that she would never again see the inside of a hospital. Making promises, even to herself, were never a sure thing to do because the future was unknown. Didn't matter how much she wanted and did believe that she was better, that she wouldn't go off of her medication again, that she wouldn't see things anymore. And for a while she was better, she was great, but at some point she began to slip back into that mentality of a scared lonely girl in the wilderness.

Just like before, though not as much, death surrounded her and reminded her that she was not better. She had tried to save them all out in those woods twenty-five years ago and she had tried again all these years later. The minute Charlotte realized what was happening ( seeing a therapist that never existed and not knowing for how long ) she had tried to save her friends by making them leave. She should have been more firmer, but she was still that lonely girl who wanted true and genuine friendship. So she caved, easily, and joined them in the brief fun that they had created.

Maybe it was seeing Natalie happy that made it hard for her to resist, to put her foot down. Maybe it was seeing them all happy after so long. Maybe she just didn't want them to leave. It didn't matter, not in the end, because what was done was done and there was no fixing it. The only thing she could fix was herself or at least attempt to do so, again. She could only hope that this time around she could make it stick and pray that the others could forgive her and one day see that she tried. But she wasn't expecting that to happen anytime soon.

So it came with some surprise when Van showed up one day a few months later. They as well as Taissa had assured her that they would visit, that it wouldn't be like last time. At the time, in her state, she didn't believe either of them as that's what her parents had told her; We'll see you soon, Charlotte, we promise. They never did visit regularly, only on her birthday and occasionally Christmas. And even after being put on medication once again ( the right dosage and heavily monitored this time ) Lottie held out on hope that they would show. She didn't expect Taissa, not with her being a busy senator, but Van...she hoped that they would show.

You'll see, she had told them and she believed herself. Even now, that whatever was going on with them, it would be resolved after that night. So seeing the redhead sitting in the visitors room, she couldn't help but smile. "Hello, Van," she said softly as she moved from the door, coming to stop near the sofa. "You..." Lottie began, words trailing off as she looked over her, smile remaining. It was back, that light that surrounded Van; or maybe it was the fluorescents. "You look well."

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